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I woke up in my bed. It was sunny and nice out side.
Peyton come on you're gonna make us late for school! Dylan yelled.
I got up, and went walked into the another room. I was in are apartment. The apartment that Dylan and Thomas shared before the world fell.
Peyton come on, your the only one who has a license eat so we can go. Dylan said as he was getting his school stuff together.
Right, sorry. Um Dylan do you need money for lunch today? I asked.
No, Thomas and I are covered, besides we need all the money to pay those bills. Dylan said.
After I ate, I helped gather Dylan's school stuff at the table.
Okay come on we have to go if we wanna miss the traffic. I said.
Dylan ran out the door. I turned and saw Thomas sitting at the dinner table.
Thomas, you coming or not? I asked.
I can't. Thomas said.
What? I asked.
I can't remember, or have you forgotten. Thomas said as he stood up.
Forgotten what? I asked.
That your the reason why I'm dead. Thomas said as he turned around, the top of his head was bleeding like crazy.
Before I could say anything Thomas wrapped his hands around my throat. He pinned me against the wall.
You should have been the one to die, I should've lived! Your supposed to be my older sister why didn't you protect me! Thomas yelled as he was choking me.
I-I'm sorry. I said with tears in my eyes.
THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT! Thomas yelled.
My eyes burst open, I screamed. I looked around where I was. I was in the kingdom still. My scream woke up Daryl.
Peyton you okay? He asked caressing me face.
Yeah, Yeah I'm okay, just a weird dream. I said as I wiped away my tears.
I'm gonna go check on Ezekiel and see if I can change his mins. I said.
Peyton wait, she breath let your self rest for a little bit. Daryl said.
I have, don't worry I'm okay. I said as I kissed Daryl and left the room.
As soon as I did I let all the tears out. This is how it was ever night I would have the same nightmare.
I went outside of the kingdom. It was a Peaceful place. Daryl and I were still trying to convince King Ezekiel to join us on the fight of the saviors.
Hello Payton. I heard Ezekiel.
Hello your majesty. I said.
Payton please you can call me Ezekiel, you don't have to do that. Ezekiel said.
Ezekiel and I sat down while his tiger was laying down next to him.
Ezekiel, have you at least considered about joining us in the fight against the saviors? I asked.
Peyton, look around here, you see all these people, there's no fighting, just peace. It wasn't easy getting here but we did. I hope you can understand that I can't just put my people in that kind of danger. Ezekiel said.
I do understand Ezekiel I really do. But living like this, is not living. Serving the saviors, letting them take all are stuff. That's not living, the only way to live is to fight. I said.
Ezekiel then looked at his people one by one.
They, didn't just kill my brother you know, they also killed my best friend. His name was Glenn, he was kind and funny and sometimes stupid. But he was always their when you needed him. Other than Daryl he was like the only person I could talk to without feeling judge. Then Negan killed him Infront of his wife who was pregnant. Ezekiel I'm not asking for you and your people to risk your lives for us. I', just asking if there is any way you can help us. Than please do. I said.
Later in the the day I was helping the people of the Kingdome. Daryl said that we were gonna leave tomorrow to join Rick to get some guns at another community.
Even though I was no longer at the sanctuary little things would remind me of it. I would try to keep myself from crying but the dream I had over night kept replaying in my head. Because it was true it was my fault that Thomas was dead. And now I had to live with that for the rest of my life.
Daryl than grabbed my hand and took me into are room.
You are gonna tell me what's wrong right now. Daryl said.
What are you talking about? I said.
Oh don't give me that bullshit Peyton, you think I haven't notice. We've been together for years and you think I don't notice. Payton I know you haven't been sleeping, I have seen you shake. Just tell me what's wrong. Daryl said.
What do you want me to say Daryl, that the reason I haven't been sleeping is because I know I'm the reason for his death. Or the fact whenever close my eyes I see Thomas's death, him bleeding and crying that night, knowing it was my fault. I said.
Peyton it wasn't your fault. Daryl said.
YES IT WAS! If I had stopped Thomas from coming with us he wouldn't be dead, he would be here with Dylan and Mae. Daryl I'm the reason for his death. HE'S DEAD AND HE'S NOT COMING BACK BECAUSE OF ME! I yelled with tears coming out of my eyes causing me to get on my knees.
Daryl than wrapped his arms around me.
Please don't say that. It wasn't your fault. At the end of the day Thomas chose to come after me because he wanted to make sure I was okay. That is what I loved about the kid so much. He was stupid but he cared so much for others. It wasn't your fault you hear me. Daryl said as he wiped the tears from my eyes and brought me into hug.
He told me to let out every emotion I had. Fear, sadness, anger, to let it all out and he would be there.
And that's what I did I let everything out. I let out every tear I had held in form that night. I kluged on to Daryl and he was their his touch made my body relax. I loved this man with all my heart.
