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♱⋰part 19⋱✮

i was starting to get excited, as my birthday was coming up soon. i've always loved my birthday, but hated having birthday parties. i've preferred to spend my birthday with family and close friends. but this year was different.

matt and sam have been planning my birthday for so long and i didn't understand really why. most of them were helping them plan, but it was mostly just them two. i wasn't too thrilled at the fact that they kept everything a secret about my birthday. they didn't even tell me the theme of it.

i become bored so i decide to go over to bills house. i don't really get ready because it was night and there was nothing too important about going to his house. mom and lilly were already asleep so i tried not to disturb them. i quietly walk out of the house and shut the door softly. i lock the door and start walking to the kaulitz house.

i get to their porch and knock at the door. i was greeted by bills and toms mom.

"oh hello, y/n! it's so nice to see you! come on in!" she greets me. i walk in and smile.

"it's so nice seeing you. i missed you." she warmfully hugs me and i laugh.

"it's nice seeing you too, mrs. kaulitz!"

"bill and tom are at gustav's so they won't be here for awhile. but you can wait in bills or toms room in the meantime."she smiles.

"thank you so much! it was great seeing you again." i begin to walk up the stairs into bills room. i lay on his bed, waiting for him to come back. i become bored so i start walking around bills room, exploring.

i finish looking around so i go to toms room. i walk in and see all the familiar guitars on the walls. i look and walk around the room, admiring all the stuff in his room. it hasn't changed much since i'd last been in here, which was when we were dating. i sit down on a chair that was in the room, just thinking about tom and i.

i didn't know if he forgave me or whether he still hates me. i look at his bed thats across from me and remember all of the memories we had in this very room. i remember laying on his bed with him, laughing and just talking. i remember him playing the guitar for me and always making me feel special. i missed him. i missed my best friend.

as much as i kept trying to deny it, i knew deep inside that it was my fault. it was my fault that this happen. i shouldn't have let that stupid girl ruin my life. i knew tom would never be the same ever again and how he deeply hated me. i found it funny how you can love someone so deeply, then hate them the next time you see them.

i lift up my legs to the chair and rest my head on my knees. i hear the front door open, so i knew that they were home now but i didn't move. i stayed there in toms room. i hear them both walk up and enter their own rooms. tom was looking down the whole time so he didn't see me. he turns around and shuts his door before walking in further. then, he looks up to see my curled up in his chair.

"god! you scared me." tom freezes.

"huh yeah sorry. i just needed to tell something."

"yeah what?"

"i don't know how many times i'm gonna say this but you don't understand how sorry i am. i feel terrible for what happened and i know that it doesn't seem like a big deal, but i ruined everything." i continue to pour out my heart to tom. "you were my best friend and now i've lost you. i don't expect you to forgive me but i thought i'd just let you know."

he sits on his bed and looks down. "thanks, y/n."

i nod and begin to start walking to leave his room. i open the door and quietly close it, then walk into bills room.

"y/n? what are you doing here?" bill gets up from his bed and walks over to me.

"um well i tried clearing things up with tom." i sigh.

bill gasps and smiles. "that's great! so are you guys like cool now?"

i shake my head. "to be honest, i'm not sure. but i did what i could."

bill smiles and side hugs me. "come on let's lay down."

i follow him and lay beside bill. i face towards him and he face towards me.

"thanks bill. you always know how to make me feel better."

"i'm glad. and i'm here if you ever need to talk to someone." bill holds my hand and we begin to giggle.

"let's watch a movie, yeah?" he says.

"sure! wanna watch twilight again?" i sit up and face the tv.

"of course."

bill turns on the tv and begins to play the movie. we both lay down again and watch. twilight was both our favorite movies since we were kids. i would always tease bill for having a crush on alice and he would tease me for having a crush on edward. we continue to enjoy the movie and making jokes. i ended up feeling a lot better in myself after expressing to tom. i finally got it off my chest.

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i'm slowly running out of ideas again.. 😰 if u have ideas pls lmk!!