Hidden lycan

35.

He knows.
What if she had told him earlier and save him the stress from finding it out the way he did.

The flight back home was tense. It was just me and Roux and I wouldn’t expect anything from him. Dark moon was under attack and we wouldn’t know what would befall us. The fact that it was my fault was stirring something in my stomach. I don’t know how he’ll react when he eventually finds out. I’m beyond confused. I don’t know if I should just tell him everything.

“Roux!” I called, He didn’t waste any time before he turned to look at me. The look on his face was all it took. All the courage that I had mustered up to tell him everything was crushed to nothingness. It was the first time he wore an emotion that lingered. He looked stressed and disheartened and that struck out all the energy I had left.

“I just wanted to know if you are okay,” I said after. He didn’t say a word, just a faint smile that he tried to portray.

The flight was tiring.
I had checked the time every once in a while, keeping the phone back with a visible frown on my face.

The environment and everything happening reminded me of the time mother had brought me out to train me. We were eating quietly, father had gone out for pack business while Dylan went to train. She had a cunning look on her face and playfully scattered my hair with her hands across the table. I was almost done with my meal but before I could finish, she helped me with it and requested that I should follow her. Without questioning her authority, I did just that but the feeling like I was in a bottomless pit didn’t go away. I had asked her if she was okay but her reply wasn’t favourable. She smiled, a faint one before she told me that I needed to get strong.

But she left me in that forest without reassurance of her coming back. She only said it’s going to be okay and that I’m strong enough.
I’m not strong enough, I still miss her and wish she had never left me that way.

I don’t want the same to happen to the people I have come to care about. I can’t imagine myself with everyone going far away and leaving me in that lonely forest. I turned to look at Roux who steadied himself at that moment. We were landing.

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“Let’s go, nothing bad would happen,” Roux reassured. I nodded at his words but that feeling wouldn’t go away, the feeling of hopelessness where I’m suddenly in the wrong end.

As we stepped our feet into dark moon, without realization and with all the tension I was feeling, I let myself loose. My façade was gone. My hair, the overwhelming power that came with my emotions were all flooding in. I was panicking and didn’t know what to do. I turned to look at Roux but he was nowhere to be found. His scent lingered and I broke down there, it took all the might I had to not just destroy everything.

No warrior wolf in the bother but that wasn’t where my concern went. The tears that streamed down my cheeks were like the ocean, clashing with itself continuously. The dread and everything I felt all at once were coming at me, slapping and hitting me with all it got. At that moment, I wish I was never born, I wish I was dead but I’m still here, in this life where I’m forever lost without a certain destination.

Now that I had started to feel something, to love him, was he going to live me in that lonely forest too. It’s all my fault. I was too selfish and stupid to think outside of my cage. I can’t escape myself, I can’t change who I am. It’s still the Ralia Dimian who is thought to be dead, feared and hated.

I wiped the tears that still lingered on my face. I put back the façade before I made my way down the woods, I walked steadily before houses came into view but the sight that met me was terrible. Two bodies, dead and as I walked further I saw more. Some where injured, one of the houses was on fire and a child was crying just outside the burning house.

I went to meet the little boy. I squatted down so I could stand at the same height with him. “It’s going to be okay, you don’t have to cry,” I soothed before I hugged him. The house was still on fire, I called on water and it responded, quenching the fire and stopping it from spreading. I entered inside the house looking for his parents but no body was there. The house was empty.

I didn’t know what else to do so I took the boy with me, hoping that I might see the boy’s parents on the way or in the pack house.

“What’s your name?” I asked him

“Michael” He answered with hope in his eyes.

“Do not worry Michael, we’ll find your parents,”

The entrance to the pack house was blocked. The number of people that crowded the area was overwhelming. Bodies that were all wounded laid on the floor while the healers attended to them. Diana was there supervising, telling them what to administer and in cases where it was too serious, she handled it herself.

Annabelle was at the other end and I was very sure she hadn’t noticed me. She looked gloomy which was so unlike her. The boy that I held tugged on my dress before I turned to his attention. He pointed at a woman with dark brown wavy hair, he was dressed like a warrior.

“Is that your mother?” I asked him. He nodded his head in reply before he started calling after the woman. “Mama V! Mama V!”

The woman turned to our direction before she ran to meet her son. “How are you doing?” Without waiting for his reply, she hugged him. “Mama, she brought me,”

“I’m Maya,” The woman carried her son before she smiled at me.

“Thank you very much, I don’t know what would have happened to him if you weren’t there. My name is Fiona,”

I went on and told her about the fire at her place. She held her son tighter and thanked me once again before she left.

I headed to where Anna was after I had greeted Diana. Luckily for her, non of her children were hurt.
“Maya!” Anna called before she hugged me, the tears, running freely down her cheeks.

“I’m so glad you’re back and not hurt,” she used the back of her hands to wipe her tears before she smiled at me.

“You don’t look okay, did anything happen?” I asked her. Her face still had the dark aura even after she had smiled.

“It’s Shelley, She’s badly injured. The rogues began the attack the day you left with Roux, Shelley was the first victim and she hasn’t woken up since then, I tried reaching out to Roux but it wasn’t going, same with yours. The attacked each day. The warriors have been battling with them ever since. Today was over the counter. We had a lot of casualties but we managed to take down most of them before they retreated. I just hope they wouldn’t come back tomorrow,”

I didn’t know what I was going to do, how I’m meant to even start. Why did it have to be Shelley. The thought of loosing her sent terrifying shivers down my spine. She’s not going to die, she can’t.

“Where is she, can I see her?” I asked.

“She’s inside, in her room, the room next to mine,” she answered. “I’m sorry Maya, I can’t come with, seeing her like that everyday is all too terrifying, I can’t stand it. I just want her to wake up,” The wiped the tears from have face just before it could reach her cheeks.

I ran immediately, down to Shelley’s room. I stopped midway after I had opened the door, unfolding the scene that was before me. It was something I never would have thought about, even in the next hundred years to come. Shelley looked lifeless, her heartbeat was slowly fading but was still there. Her eyes were closed while her body laid still. Roux knelt beside the bed, tears pouring freely down his face. I couldn’t move, not with Roux the way he was.

I struggled to move my legs down to where he was, thinking of nothing but how I’ll get him to listen. When I got to where he was, he stood from his position. Without sparing me a glance, he headed for the door.
“Roux please wait!” But he didn’t listen. He kept moving, leaving the room cold with just myself and Shelley.