Hidden lycan

27

Claustrophobia.
The fear of closed, tight places.

The past few weeks has been really hectic. I’ve had to deal with Sam knowing my secret and him being my next door neighbour.

He had to ignore me most of the time or better still just greet and walk away. Anna became all suspicious of me, insisting that I have a secret I’m not telling.

She wouldn’t let me be. The pack has been undergoing serious training for everyone who is between the range of 16-30 for females and 15-35 for males. Since I look to be in my mid 20s, I was officially part of it. Not only that, also owing to the fact I’m believed to be an omega.

Anna was officially in, she and her brother were the only lycans in dark moon asides me and Diana. Wonder if any of her children inherited the traits.

Zia appeared to be 20 while Larissa was 18.

Past few days of the training, Roux also appeared to be so kind and loving… Not like couples though but he acknowledged the mate bond and I was starting to wonder if there was more to it than that.

I sat alone, swinging my self while I looked at the sky, the beautiful blue staring back at me and just immediately, I remembered the story my mom told me about the river. She said that the sun and moon were really close like mates but they were tired at some point of being far high. They decided to come to earth where they met with the river. The river dominated the Earth with her children. At a point, they made a deal with mother river. She met with her sisters sea and ocean to give out their children to sun and moon to stay for a while.

The unthinkable happened. The children of sea and ocean went with Moon and sun but all didn’t end so well. They pushed sun and moon farther apart to the point that they couldn’t make contact with each other. They dominated sun and moon’s home and decided on a new name, calling it the sky.

I know the story doesn’t make any sense but I really enjoyed it as a pup, sitting on the floor with both my hands on my jaw, rested on my laps.

“Maya!” A thick voice that had the power to just make me melt on my toes called. I stood up to meet him, but it didn’t stop the wonders that his eyes were doing to my body. I breathe in his strong cologne and fresh shave.

He furrowed his eyebrows at me, unsure of why I was standing still.

“You seem to dwell deeply on yourself” He asked amused.

“I…I…I… “

“Forget about that” He interrupted, I wanted to slap myself so hard for being so speechless but that’ll be more humiliating as I’ll be considered mad.

“The training has started… “ He explained while I followed behind. I wasn’t so far off from the training ground.

My eyes subconsciously landed on Sam who seemed to be informing Roux on something. He ignored me and went off to meet the others after he was done.

“Maya dear!” Anna called from the group of girls gathered. She breaks from the group, coming over to where I was.

She smiled cheekily at me and didn’t bother to glance at her brother who was by my side. She dragged me down to the group where the girls were discussing some irrelevant stuffs. The girls glanced up at me the moment I had arrived with Anna.

“I’m not going to be that… “ A girl not so tall, with black hair retorted, moving away from the group where they all laughed.

“Alpha Roux is so hot… I wonder why he hasn’t found his mate yet, if she doesn’t show up real soon, I’ll snatch up that Luna title” A blonde headed girl who did dimples expressed. She was the one who had made fun of the girl who left. I turned to meet with Anna’s ‘I know you’re jealous’ gaze. She smiled inwardly before she focused back on the group.

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“Lines!” James commanded strictly and immediately, we made our formation. Females from 16-25 on line A and from 26-30 on line B. Same formation for the males as well. Both I and Anna were on line B.

“Line A, male and female 30 laps, line B, male and female stretches”

The group that ran were already on the 10th laps when I excused myself that I needed a towel. I went to the storage room to get one but the moment I entered, the door closed before me with a loud thud that I jerked.

I didn’t bother much about the door, I only wanted the towel and then I was out.

‘He’s here’ There was no denying it. His scent was lingering all over the small space. ‘small space’ I thought, a feeling of panic about to set in. I was more or less claustrophobic and didn’t like enclosed spaces and what I feared was laughing right at me. The door could not open. I kept banging and turning the door knob but it didn’t open. ‘stupid door’ I thought.

My pulse was so loud and hard that I could possibly feel the palpitations of my arteries. I crouch closer to the door, the throbbing pain spreading in the front and back of my head.

“You can do this Maya… Take a deep breath” I spoke to myself, unsure if I would even take those words as it is.

“Please… Someone… Plea… “ I stopped myself the moment I heard footsteps. I inhaled deeply before I exhaled.

“Maya!” His smooth voice called, I turned my head to look at his hands on my shoulders. He was crouched to my length, his minty breath caking my face.

“Are you okay?” He asked and at the moment, I noticed that the hoarseness has returned. I looked up into his eyes and then brought it to his hands.

“I am… It’s just that the… do…”

“The what?” He asked sweetly.

Without giving him a reasonable answer, I held on to his hands really tight as if it was the last oxygen that was going to save me.

“Maya!” He called yet again. I untangled my hands from his, standing up to my feet. He stood up too, watching my every move.

I prayed silently that when I turn the door knob it’ll just open but my prayer didn’t work so well. I banged so hard on the door, jumping, kicking, in hope that I find a loophole but the door stood still staring back at me. I shouted at the top of my lungs.
The door was really hard and if I tried anything, like breaking it down, it’ll seem really pathetic and there was a high chance I was going to loose my self in the process, risking my secret.

“Anna!”

“Anybody!”

“Help me!”

“Please… Somebody help!”

And still no answer. I wanted to start kicking, start shouting again but I couldn’t, not with Roux’s hard hands on my mouth.

“It’s going to be okay” he soothed, drawing me away from the door. I tried breaking free from his strong hold, feeling that if I don’t do something any moment from now, I’ll be doomed forever or likely die. I tear his hands from my mouth, struggling to move away from his strong hold. He had his hands on my waist while I kept trashing around.

“Just let go of me… I
… Just… Need to ge… T to the do… Or” I stammered, turning to face him. I looked deep into his eyes like something would happen if I look anywhere else. He looked sorry for me and I was angry at my fear for making me do stupid things and look so helpless.

“Please… “ I begged. He loosened his hands on my waist before it went on my cheeks, the heat rising.

“Bu… T… I… “ He paused my words, caressing my cheeks, more or less, removing the strands of my hair from my face. He wanted to say something but he paused himself, choosing his next set of words carefully.

“I’ve mind linked someone, they’ll be here soon… “ He explained.

I stared down at him, his hands still doing wonders to my face, it really did help, with the tension and everything I was feeling all together.

“Umm… Thanks” I mumbled

“Don’t say. I only did what I thought was right, you don’t owe any thanks to me”

“I was really scared you know… But… Yo… U helped… Like what you do… Umm… “

“What did I do?” He asked amused, squinting his eyes.

I stared back at him, unsure of what to say. By instinct, I moved backwards, realising the proximity at which we stood but his hands stopped me from moving any further. He tucked a strand of hair at the back of my ears, his face so close to mine that our nose was almost touching. I breathe in heavily, shivers running down my spine.

I don’t really know what came over me but I closed my eyes, waiting for something magical to happen.

It was soft and slow at first, finding the perfect rhythm. I wanted to back away but still, I wanted to let those tiny voice in my head take control.

When he found the perfect spot, his touch, his lips, it did it’s own magic making me feel the rush of helplessness, the warmth that made my legs go limp.

I didn’t want to struggle anymore, I want to feel, I wanted to feel everything all at once. He wasn’t gentle anymore. The intensity, the sparks, the proximity, it made me think of stupid things.

And then I was in control, glad that he let me. And no, I wasn’t gentle, I wasn’t scared, I was free, like the bird from it’s cage. He tasted like mint, the cool mint that you’d be gasping for more.

We stopped for the moment, breathing in the cool breeze. Without warning, his lips was parting my shaking lips, sending tremors that felt like the harsh breeze in harmattan. I didn’t know this part of me existed, I didn’t know I could feel so much all at once. I felt myself drowning, drowning in the minty pool that was three things in one, relaxing, enticing and harsh.

The twitching of the door knob broke us apart. We were both panting and sweating. Anna stood by the side of the door with that stupid smile on her face that kept most of her dirty thoughts, I didn’t turn back to look at Roux or listen to the call from Anna, I moved as fast as my legs could carry me, not stopping at any point. I ignored the glances and the dirty glares when I made my way to the kitchen. They sure did notice something, I smelt of Roux, so much that they were ready to say something but kept it to themselves.

I took what I came for and the next minute I was in my room, smiling at nothing in particular but the dirty thoughts that ran in my head. I’m not a teenager, but why do all this make me feel so giddy. I bounced on the bed, staring at the stealing, my mind drifting. Now, I wish I was a fairy so I could fly so high and maybe I’ll even make it to the moon.

‘stop smiling so much’ I told myself, trying to fake a frown but I ended up laughing. I stood on my bed jumping, I felt like I was on top of the world but I didn’t want to fall so soon.

“Miss Maya!” A familiar voice called

“Come in” I said, coming down from the bed and fixing my messy hair.

She stood, staring at me like I was covered with butterflies but honestly, I did feel butterflies in my stomach.

“Zia!” I called smiling, her green orbs staring back at me.

“Umm… Miss May… “

“Just call me Maya”

“Okay… “ She said seeming to be lost in something and then I was reminded that I smelt of Roux.

“Zia!”

“I’m so sorry” she said, smiling inwardly, afraid of her feelings known.

“No worries… “

“Actually, Miss Anna called for you… She said she’ll like you to meet someone”