Hidden lycan

37.

Reconciliation.
The re-establishment of friendly relations.

After I left from Diana’s place yesterday, I had locked myself in my room, crying out rivers and streams. Today was what I dreaded. After the horrible incident yesterday, I didn’t know how I was expected to face everyone. I wanted to go out, to run to him, to tell him I’m sorry that I didn’t mean to but I already did that yesterday and it turned out fatal. I didn’t know what to do, Diana said he was going to come around but what am I expected to do.

I laid on my bed for the third time, my mind still wandering. I wanted to shout, break things and hit the door but I was still trapped by my thoughts, trapped by the feelings of what I imagine people to think of me. My legs, my whole body was itchy like the bed wasn’t comfortable.

I block the unending thoughts that kept running in my mind and with all the courage I had left, I opened the door, letting the cold breeze hit upon my skin like feathers grazing it.

The place was quiet, all the tension I had experienced yesterday had suddenly vanished. I wanted to go to Shelley’s room but the thought of encountering Roux again with all the edginess was something I wanted to avoid.

“Maya!” Diana call from afar with a warm smile on her face. She beckoned for me to come and I did just that.

“Good morning Diana,” I greeted.

“Good morning to you too, hope you slept well?” She asked. She dropped the big bags on her hands, trying to put her blue skirt in place before she picked them back up. I helped her with one of them, unsure of what was inside.

“I wouldn’t say it was okay but I’m glad I didn’t have any nightmare. Yourself?”

“Well, I barely slept. I tried researching on different medicines to speed up Shelley’s healing,” She said.

She bade me goodbye after she had told me to take care of myself, reminding of the fact that Roux was going to come around.
I let my legs lead me out of the pack house down to the garden.

I can’t remember the last time I’ve been here. I haven’t really payed attention to it but it looked very beautiful.

Flowers symbolizes different things but the ones here which were carefully picked out made it look like something unimaginable, one that can’t be put into words.

I savour the sweet scent, each distinct in its own way. Who knew relishing the view of a garden could be so peaceful.

“Hi!” The soft voice of a girl broke me out of my enchantment. Her eyes were as that of the sea. Her innocent demeanor kept me wandering.
She had a blue gown on that accentuated her curves, her hair as bright as the sun was plaited in pigtails.

“Hi!” I returned her gesture.

“My name is Fiona. Isn’t the garden beautiful,”

“It indeed is,” I concurred, wandering if were going to start talking about the garden.

“You must be Maya?” She asked and I nodded my head. She seemed to be lost in herself before she spoke again.

“Do not mind me if I’m disturbing your day. I was there when the whole commotion erupted and-“ She exhaled deeply before she continued.
“You don’t deserve any of that. You’re a good person, one who is fit to be out Luna. I’m sorry for everything that has happened,” She apologized even if she has done nothing wrong.

“You don’t have to,” I responded.

“No no, I know I didn’t say anything out openly to you but there are at times when I had believed what people had said without getting to know you and seeing what you’re actually like,” She explained.

“I hope we could get to know each other and eventually become friends,” She said after with a smile on her face.

“Me too,” I replied. We talked for a while and I found out that we had a lot in common. We would have talked more but with Roux arrival, she excused herself.

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“Maya!” He called, broody would best describe the tone of his voice. Seeing him that way was breaking every bit of my soul.

“I’m sorry,” I whispered but he didn’t look pleased. It was like I was doing the exact opposite of what he wanted me to do.

“Do you know how hard this is!” His thick voice Resounded.

“Yes!” I yelled back. “I know every piece of it. The part where you’re never good enough, when you feel it’s going to all end, those things that make you happy, people that you’ve come to care about. I know how it all feels but please don’t leave me there again, don’t leave me in that Forest all alone,” I said, pouring every piece of my soul into it. I couldn’t stop the tears that streamed down my face. The overwhelming feeling that was bursting out of me like storms over the ocean.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” He asked, trying to hear me out.

“How would I?” I asked while he looked dumbfounded. He wanted to say something but kept to himself.

“You know, I didn’t ask to be born this way but what did I get back, ha-tred” I spelt out.

“I’m not allowed to live freely, I never wanted any of this. I could have stayed hidden but then I found you and I knew running was going to be useless, the mate bond wasn’t something I couldn’t fight against. I’m really sorry that I was selfish all this while, I’m sorry about Shelley, I’m sorry about everything. I knew that if I had told you, I would loose you-“

Before I could complete what I was saying, he closed the distance between us. He placed his fingers on my lips, stopping me from saying anything.

“Bu-t” I try to say through his fingers.

“You don’t have to Maya, I would never hate you. What happened to you and what you did wasn’t your fault, I’ve been stupid, attending meetings and leaving you out of everything. Maybe I would have found out if I had spent enough time with you. It’s my fault too,” He explained before he removed his fingers from my lips.

“I’ve grown to want you and to ravish every part of you. Your body, your soul-“ He said with all sincerity.

“But I’m not good enough, I’ll put everyone in trouble. They’ll come again, they won’t stop looking for me. I want you to, I love you but-“ Without waiting for me to complete my sentence, he captured my lips with his. His kiss on my lips were intense and filled with passion. His hands on my waist drew me closer, my body aligning with his. The tingling sensation spreading all over.
He withdrew from me, leaving me aching for more.

“You’re heart belongs to me now Maya and I would never let it go,”  without warning, he smashed his lips against mine again, sending tremors down my spine. The heat in the pull of my stomach was overwhelming that my body went limp.

He let me in control and no, I wasn’t gentle. I kissed him back with all the intensity he had kissed me with, pouring every bit of me, anger, lust, passion.

I withdrew, hugging him instead, my head rested on his shoulders allowing all the warmth of his body, the rising and falling of his chest to be one with mine.