LOVE BEYOND LESSONS (A Teacher and Student Romance)

XIII - BI. BOUNDARIES ARE BROKEN

I walked back towards our house and as I approached it my heart beat so loud every second I step forward. I took a deep breath when I hold the door knob, ready for anything but I was surprised it is locked.

I pulled my keys unlocking it, once I entered and switch on the lights I noticed that the house was clean as if nothing happened, this is not the scene I am expecting, however as I went to my room and walked through the hallway I noticed that my door was opened, so I immediately ran towards it.

My door knob was destroyed and inside was a mess, as if tornado just passed by, my vanity cabinet was at the floor, the glass were completely shattered, my books are all scattered on the floor mixed with some of my clothes, my mattress was completely upside down, the sheets were removed.

The more I investigate my room, the more mess I saw. I looked at my now empty cabinet, and went to the drawers where I stashed my money, with my hand shaking and my heart beat rising I opened it.

Sure enough the cash is gone – it's not that huge but it is enough for me to purchase a second hand car. I'm planning to get my license before halloween, but I want to make sure I do have my own car. I sank to the floor, I'm not crying but I'm furious, I can't believe that my mom would do this, who else will? Is she really the woman who raised me? Is she really the mom that I think I knew? I remembered her eyes earlier, it was so dead and so scary, I shudder at the memory.

I did not bother to clean my room immediately, I grabbed some comforter and went down to the couch to stay the night in there. There are too many things that happened in one day and I don't have any energy to move anymore. I collapsed into the couch, kicking off my shoes while thinking concurrently. 

First, Rob wanted to forget our feelings for one another. Afterward, John, my grandfather, who I had always thought was dead, told me some strange things about my mother. Lastly, my mother, whom I had just witnessed doing the unthinkable, did precisely what John had said.

My thoughts are so disorganized that I'm not sure what emotion should be allowed to feel at the moment. All I wanted was to become numb and stop feeling anything.

Monday came, and I know I am running late but I just can't bring myself to stand up, I texted Missy that I'll be going to school by myself so she don't need to pick me up.

I spent the whole day yesterday cleaning my room, and changing my door knob, I was so exhausted at the end of the day that I over slept, I don't want to go to school since I get to see Rob there, but I don't have to skip class because of it, so I got up, got my towel, and went to my bathroom.

I kept my head down and walked to school. I knew it wasn't a smart idea to walk right now because I was going to be late, but it doesn't matter anymore.

My feet dragged me to the English building, and entered at Mr. Bailey's class, I know my class mates were looking at me, but I continue to walk keeping my head down, Mr. Bailey coughed but I did not acknowledged him, he did not say anything either as he continued his lessons and I just sat down at my usual spot.

I looked out the window, why does my life turned like this? Senior year is my last year in high school it should be filled with fun memories, not this, I never wanted to be like this.

John was worried about me I can see, when he told me about my mom, at first I did not believe it but I saw it through my eyes. The way she wrapped the foil and inhaled the smoke I just can't get it out of my head, not to mention I need to get my mind off to my teacher who is talking right now, how can I stop my feelings for him if he is the first person I will be meeting in school?

Suddenly I felt a nudged at my side, I looked at my seat mate and she motioned her head at front, I followed her lead and saw that Mr. Bailey was looking at me, he was calculating me as if he knew something is bothering me. I glanced across the room the whole class was staring at me