TRYING, daryl dixon ✔️

056, reunion.

lily and daryl were walking around the forest hunting for squirrel, they didn't find much. when they heard there were walkers headed for the bridge, their walky had told them, the second they got the news they shot a look at eachother.  everyone and their mom was there in minutes, they needed to do something.. they saw rick leading the herd onto the bridge. lily stared at rick, how was he gonna get out of this one? daryl shot an arrow at a walker getting close to him, rick had a big gash in his hip. lilia knew rick grimes was immortal. he had to be, he was richard daniel grimes. he walked slowly in pain. everyone except daryl and lily ran to him, lily just did what daryl did. that was stay there. rick looked at daryl his hand on his bloody hip, he nodded at him, lilia still couldn't process what was happening, she understood the second rick put his arms over his chest, i love you in sign language.

she did it back. he had to survive, he just needed to. rick doesn't die. lily just watched as rick pulled out his gun and shot something, lily thought it was a walker, she genuinely thought it was a walker but he blew up. no, he didn't shoot a walker he shot dynamite. he blew himself up. he fucking blew up the bridge. he was dead. the second lilia dixon comprehended her uncle rick grimes may be dead. she ran at full speed towards rick. she needed to do something. she just looked at the water. his gun, not him. only his gun. she put it in her bag and walked back to camp. no more bridge, no more rick, no more love.

lily put the gun in her closet and grabbed her notebook and a sharpie.

dear rick,
i know this is dumb, trust me. i know your gone i just need you to know this. i already know that your death is going to change the world, i'm so happy your with carl and lori again, maybe you guys can get the fam together again, maybe a family reunion. tell them i love em. tell everyone that we miss them and that i love them. tell carl im sorry i couldn't save him. tell lori im sorry im such an asshole, tell jonah that im sorry i already moved on, i hope you are partying already. rick i'll tell judith every story of you. i'll tell her about carl, about your brave act to save us all. your more then amazing, you were everything to me, you were perfect. i'm sorry for all the fights we've gotten in. i'm sorry for all the shit i've put you through, i'm sorry that i'm not living up to the niece thing. i love you so much rick.  have a good time up there.

-lil

she knew she'd never see him again but she put that note in a nice wooden block along with the gun, she put anything that reminded her of him in there. she grabbed her black sharpie and wrote "rick grimes" in nice letters. she already missed him so bad. she remembered all the times they had.

funny times
~ "your sayin hotdogs are a sandwich!" rick asked her. "well obviously, they fit the definition." she said smiling, he let out a chuckle. "it's obviously a taco. shaped like a taco, it makes sense huh?" he asked. "i guess but it's still a sandwich." she said. "sure." he laughed at her. ~

happy times
~ "rick there is no way!" lily said. "of course there is a way! watch!" rick said, he shot a walker straight in the nose. "see now he can't smell nothin!" he said excited. "that's so cool." ~

sad times
~ lily sat in her bed sobbing, she missed glenn, she missed jonah. rick walked in and layed beside her. "it's okay." he said in a soft tone. "don't worry, we are gonna work this out." lily looked at him. "if we don't? i have no hope left." she wiped her tears. "i promise it's all okay, i'll make sure of it." rick said. lily smiled at him, she fell asleep crying into his shoulder, he stayed the whole night. ~

mad times
~ "so what! your sons an asshole!" she screamed at him. "no he's not, he's a good person!" he shouted back. "he ripped apart the only thing of my dead family, that's not a good enough reason for you?" she asked slowly walking toward him. "it is, just suck it up." rick said back. ~

she remembered everything, she missed him so bad. she loved him. she always did, she never questioned it. she layed on her bed when she was crying rick would help her, no matter what he was doing. rick was gone, lily was here. daryl was here, maggie was here, what did rick, carl, jonah, cali, glenn, abraham, noah, beth, tyreese, hershel, tdog, merle, dale, sophia, amy, and jim do to deserve this? they were all good souls. she felt a sharp pain. she didn't know why but she wiped her tears and walked to daryl's room. he wasn't there but there was a letter on the door. "i'm leaving i need to find rick if he's still here. stay safe for as long as i'm gone, don't expect me to be back soon." it read.

"you didn't even tell me goodbye?" she yelled at the paper. "i need you dad. i need you. i need you! now you leave!"

she screamed into her pillow. "why me!? why?" she screamed. "why?" she asked quieter. she fell backwards.

what in the actual fuck was going on in her life?

authors note 🍀
writing this on christmas eve, eve. 6 year time jump coming next!

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