it's the literal emptiness in the pit of my stomach again.
no matter how many people surround me,
i always manage to feel alone.
tomorrow this time my house will be filled with people congratulating me on graduating,
and now i don't want to see a single one of them.
what's wrong with me?
why do i always feel so alone?
sometimes i can push it away and forget--
maybe for hours,
days,
weeks,
and i almost forget it's there.
almost.
but it always finds me in the worst times.
i just want to fit in.
i just want to belong.
this might be selfish,
but this weekend is supposed to be about me,
and--
i just feel like i'm being left out.
everything's going wrong,
and nobody has asked about me.
but life goes on,
it always has,
and i just stand still in the current,
and watch everyone else move downstream to better lives--
cemented where i stand.
is it so much to ask to be noticed?
is it so much to ask to be included?
is it so much to ask to be loved?
