Do you want to know what my greatest fear is?
Being alone.
Having to walk through life by myself.
Waking up one morning and realizing that there will never be anyone for me--
nobody to laugh at any stupid puns I make,
nobody to coax all the secrets out of my heart,
nobody to tell me I'm beautiful when I wake up or get out of the shower,
nobody to know and challenge me.
Now, I realize this is kind of an enigma,
the introvert that's afraid of being alone,
but I can assure you--
it's paralyzing.
It's the kind of fear that makes me lie awake for hours in the dark,
the kind of fear that takes what little self esteem I have and burns it,
the kind of fear that whispers to me
"why would anyone ever choose you?"
"what makes you think you're good enough to be loved?"
And what if it's true?
