The Girl Who Came From Above

CHAPTER 34: Unattached Strings

I slowly closed the door behind me and let out a sigh. Maybe I am just depending my emotions on her? Maybe I feel comfortable because I know the fact that she's my guardian angel and she protected me always. I shook my head to clear my thoughts. Hinawakan ko ang dibdib ko and I can still feel how fast my heart beat was. I slowly walk down the stairs. I didn't even notice how I ran from school to Angel's house and now I started panicking.

I thought I lost my trauma, but at the end of the day it'll always come back. Siguro I'm just preoccupied of Lloren and Angel's presence kaya hindi ko natritrigger ang trauma ko but look at me now. In the middle of the road, my whole body is shaking. Pilit akong lumakad. Even that my breathing started to become unstable, I continue to walk. I successfully arrived at the bus station, umupo ako sa waiting shed at pilit pinakalma ang sarili ko.

"Jastine?" Nagtama ang paningin namin ni Ken. He is wearing a jacket and a shorts and on his hand is a plastic bag with groceries. Nilapitan niya ako and he touched my forehead trying to figure out what's wrong with me. "K-ken...please...please take me home" I beg at him. He hurriedly look for a taxi and luckily a taxi was available. Sinakay niya ako sa loob and tinawagan niya kaagad ang personal doctor ko. Upon arriving at home, I already saw my doctor. He hurriedly check my vitals and he helped me calm myself.

He allows me to rest when I got stable. Nagpaalam na si Ken and my doctor decided to stay for a night para bantayan ako. "I thought you become better" he said as he sat down next to me. "I also thought that I was better" I replied to him. "I noticed that the lady was not here..." He asked referring to Angel. "She....she moved" I shortly responded.

"You said before that she was the reason why you cope up with your trauma..." He again started the conversation. "Jastine, I think your case is directly connected to your psychological senses. If you happen to be on isolation, your trauma will come back and if you feel that you have someone by your side, your starting to cope up and manage the trigger...." he explained while he grab a piece of paper on his bag and write down something.

"Your trauma started when you lost your parents and you said before during our consultation that you're afraid that you're going to live your life alone...." he stopped and he show me the paper. He wrote down the word 'parents' on it. "But lately, you found another coping mechanism and this time it wasn't your parents, nor grandparents, nor friends. It was Angel....." he added and then he wrote down Angel's name on the paper beside my parents.

"Our parents is one of the most special people in our lives.... no one else will replaced them. And yet, Angel can give you the coping mechanism...." He stopped for a while. "What do you mean by that?" I asked him. "The logic is, she is something more than a friend to you. She has a special place in your heart, Jastine. Your mind process that special feeling and that became your coping mechanism"

Napatayo ako mula sa pagkahiga. "Do you think I have something for her Doc?" I asked. I know I can feel it, but I am still in the phase of indenial. He walk closer to me and gently touch my head and my chest, "Your mind and your heart tells" he said and so he pointed the monitor beeping beside me. I can saw that my heart rate started to raise.

"She's...she's not one of us doc and I know that you know that. I'm afraid that, maybe I can be a hindrance to her mission" I said in a worrying tone. "Do Angels are forbidden to fall in love?" He asked. I don't know. I haven't asked her. He smiled at me and tossed my medicines in the table. "Maybe she was sent here for you Jastine. Maybe God knows how hard life was been for you and so she sent an angel to be with you for those hard times or maybe your parents sent her to you" Hindi kaagad ako nakaimik dahil sa sinabi niya. Maybe?