Mr. Right (Mr. Series #3)

Chapter 4

"Hi," he greeted. Tears stream down my cheeks.

Tumango ako. "Hi."

"Am I awake, or have I been dreaming?" he inquired in such a manner as if he were high. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba 'to sa lasing siya.

"No, you're not. Wait, kukuha lang ako ng first aid kit para gamutin ka."

I was about to stand up, nang hilahin niya ako at pinaupo sa hita niya.

"They beat me. Those thugs who we met last time when we bought our wedding rings. They beat me, and I just let them, 'cause I deserved it even if I could fight them all. I thought I deserved their punches because I was an asshole," kwento niya na parang nagsusumbong na bata habang hawak pa rin ang kaliwang kamay ko. "I was satisfied, but what they did never let the guilt escape my heart. It's still here, Sheen May. The pain."

Inilagay niya sa dibdib niya ang kamay ko. I can feel his heartbeat.

Napaiwas ako ng tingin at napatingala para pigilan ang mga luha. It pains me too to see him like this. Bakit ba kami napunta sa ganitong sitwasyon?

"And now I'm hallucinating seeing you in front of me. I guess I'm really drunk. Why would you be here in the first place? You hated me, right?"

Tumango ako. "Yeah, I hate you."

"And I couldn't afford to approach you to apologize again since I was the one who brought all the pain into your life. How can I face you after all I've said and done? I faked our marriage and caused our baby to die. You are now scared of me."

Napayuko siya. Binitawan niya ang kamay ko.

"I want to beg, pero baka lalo ka lang magalit sa akin. Gusto kong lumuhod sa 'yo't magmakaawang bumalik ka na sa 'kin, pero hindi ko mahanap ang kapal ng mukha para gawin 'yon. I don't think I have the right to do that."

Rinig ko ang hikbi sa pagitan ng kaniyang pananalita.

"I told you I loved you; that was true, but I couldn't prove it. How can I prove it?"

Pumatak ang butil ng luha mula sa mga mata ko.

"Is it enough to let you go so you can finally be happy with someone else?"

Napakagat ako sa labi ko.

Hindi ko na napigilang tuluyang umiyak.

Agad na umangat ang ulo niya upang tingnan ako.

He was surprised to hear me crying.

"See? Even in my imagination, I can hear your sobs. How can I approach you in person if I know I will just see you crying?" He brushed away my tears with his delicate fingers. I missed his touch, which sent chills down my spine. "God knows how I regret everything. I want to touch you again, kiss you, make love with you, take care of you, and be with you again, Sheen May. I want it all to happen again."

Napakamot siya sa ulo, at pinunasan ang mga luha niya. "If you were just really here, those are the words I would say."

"I am here, Jhon Rey. I am real," I said as I cupped his face.

Tumawa siya na para bang hindi kumbinsido. Nakatitig lang siya sa akin bago hinawakan niya ang pisngi ko.

I saw how his pupil widened when he realized he was not dreaming or hallucinating.

"Sh-sheen May?"

He seemed surprised and sober.

"Yes, Jhon Rey. It's me. You seem to believe me now, so wait for me here; I'll get the med kit, and I'll treat your wound," I stated.