The Oleander Woman [Free Space Series #1]

CHAPTER 44: Risk

She grabbed me by my waist and pushed me towards the sink.

Hunger...

Is the right word to describe how this kiss was.

Halos hindi ko na magawang sumabay sa ginagawa niya. Everything is fast.. her hands, her lips, her tongue, everything. Nang hindi siya makuntento sa pwesto naming dalawa, she put me on top of the sink without even letting go of my lips.

I can feel my tears rolling down my cheeks, but I do not care. I want this. I want her.

Today, there's nothing but surrender.

I choose to give all of myself to her.

She breathes deeply into my mouth, creating a passage for me. She breathes heavily as her teeth drive into my lower lip, reciprocating, producing pain, heat, and want, as her tongue drags across, soft and warm, and-

Oh God!

Her tongue feels hot, burning, resonating downwards and deeper as I realize myself getting preyed upon, explored, and taken—and... there's nothing I can do—nothing to think about, nothing and nowhere to be—but right here, responding to her hungry kiss.

Kaori drags her tongue across my lips, full and hard and soft, tasting, wanting.

"Hmn.."

Narinig ko ang mahina niyang paghinga, hands lost somewhere in my hair, not dragging, not clutching, but holding on to it very gently. Her hands are barely holding on while mine are dragging, digging deeper into her skin.

Fuck. Her lips was hot, warm, and wet.

We separate with an audible sound—a wet one that is making my face burn even more. Ni hindi ko magawang idilat ang mga mata ko upang tignan siya. Iniyuko ko ang ulo habang pareho kaming naghahabol ng hininga.

Everything's throbbing. The world is pulsing wildly—my heart, my lips, everything. I feel absolutely drenched in her, absolutely soaked in it.

Nakaramdam ako ng haplos mula sa pisngi ko and when I opened my eyes, our gazes met. Her eyes were full of emotions as she caressed my cheeks very gently.

"Do you.. like it?" She asked, almost a whisper.

Do I like it?

I don't know.. I'm.. confused.

"Tell me, am I making you uncomfortable?" She wiped my tears away. "Please.. answer me, please? Don't just look at me.." she's looking at me with her pleading eyes, acting like her life depends on me.

When I looked away, I heard her sighed. Unti-unti niyang inilayo ang palad niya sa pisngi ko. Dahil dito, hindi ko maiwasang makaramdam ng kirot mula sa dibdib. Ayokong... Ayokong nasasaktan siya. Nasasaktan din ako.

"I'm sorry,"

She was about to turn around and walk away when I pulled her in her wrist and put my hand on the back of her neck as I pulled her closer to me. I can feel her body flinching when our lips touch again for the second time.

I closed my eyes.

Bahala na. Basta ang alam ko, gusto ko 'tong ginagawa ko.

***

"Tanga! Tanga! Tanga!" Sunod-sunod kong binatukan ang sarili.

"Huy teh, ano ka ba? Hindi pa nagsisimula exam natin nasiraan ka na agad ng bait d'yan? Save it for later nalang, teh."