I was reviewing the insights and the people reached to my newly uploaded youtube video yesterday on my laptop while I am also scrolling sa mga tagged photos ni Kiyu.
Dito makikita ang mga close-up photos niya. Kadalasan stolen. At lahat ay gwapo siya.
Parang may sariling fansite din ang mokong na 'to, ah.
All the pictures are taken during art exhibits. He's been to different countries already.
It's obvious na he's enjoying what he's doing and he really love it.
Unlike with me na minsan hindi ko na gusto ang ginagawa ko like nauubusan na ako ng idea at napapagod na ako.
I've been making animation videos since buhay pa si Mommy. Naisip ko lang na ganoon na lang ang gagawin ko since hindi ko siya maiwan para magtrabaho at the same time I like making animation din naman. And after she died nagpatuloy pa rin ako sa paggawa kahit na nakapagtrabaho na ako. And I decided to stop working when I started making money making videos on youtube. It's a long journey and it's not even easy.
Kaya ngayon na-gi-guilty ako dahil nawawalan na ako ng gana. This has been my lifesaver sa ilang taon.
I am experiencing burnout pero nilalabanan ko since this is the source of my income. Tsaka ayoko na ring magtrabaho sa kahit ano.
I received silver botton last two years ago and my goal is to get the gold one pero pakiramdam ko ang tagal ko pang makuha iyon.
Unlike before nakakatapos ako ng dalawang three minute video sa loob ng isang linggo. The fact na matagal ang process ng animation at editing. Pero ngayon halos sa isang linggo hindi ako makatapos ng kahit isang video.
And I hate it so much.
Like gusto ko na lang tumulala buong araw. I feel so tired kahit wala akong ginagawa.
Kaya I decided to put into doing ang idea ng pagbubuntis.
This is not only for the reason na gusto ko lang ng bagong pagkakaabalan sa buhay, this is what I want noon pa man.
Ang magkaroon ng anak.
Parang hinahaplos ang puso ko kapag nakakakita ako ng baby.
Napapangiti ako habang iniimagine ang sarili na may tumatawag sa akin na 'Nanay'.
Ayoko ng Mommy.
Or even Mama.
I like 'Nanay' because it feels like parang nilalambing ako.
My heart is so happy when I imagine na ihahatid ko na siya sa school at tutulungan ko siya magsagot ng homeworks niya.
I sighed.
Sana bumilis ang paglipas ng mga araw.
Itinabi ko na ang laptop at nagfocus sa harapan ng cellphone ko. I clicked a video na nakatagged kay Kiyu at sa iba pang mga accounts na hindi ko alam.
The video has a plain black background only. A popular banger music starts playing and white colored texts are starting to appear.
Valdroa boys y'all.
Kairo Valdroa who is famous internationally for his mind-blowing portraits. Models and hollywood actresses are the usual clients. Even King of Spain's beloved sister personally requested him to make a portrait of her. Those clients of him are simping over him, kasi sino bang hindi? Ang gwapo niya kahit masungit ang mukha. He is so alpha coded but sorry girls he has a girlfriend na and it's so obvious na he is so in love. So, we should admire him from afar nalang.
