ENAMOUR LOVE

Chapter 10.

What the hell is going on with me?

I never was comfortable with anyone especially these males, then what changed in a few hours? Why am I getting so comfortable around him.

I shook away these thoughts and the reality hit me, how am I going to face my family now? They will kill me, if they get to know about this. What to do now?

"Amyrah." A voice startled me and I looked beside me. Miss Lubna was seated beside me and she held both of my hands. "What's wrong, why are you shivering?" She asked concerned and I looked at my hands, indeed I was trembling.

I shook my head trying to smile a little. "Are you sure? Is there anything?"

"I'm fine, thank you." I whispered to her and she relaxed. Why is she so nice to me? What should I do now? How to get away from these? He won't divorce me and that's for sure. I don't even know if I want it now or not.

Don't be scared of anyone. Be normal as if nothing happened, no one will doubt you until you give them the reason.

His voice echoed in my head and my racing heart was calming down. I shouldn't trust him blindly, what if it's just a facade and illusion and everything might break at the end of the day. What if he is waiting for me to trust him and then he might crush it down.

Why would he be nice to me when my own family isn't. Why did he save me and not once but thrice. Why did he even accept a mess like me. I'm not even attractive, nor lean, I don't know how to talk properly nor do I have confidence in myself.

Then why? Why did someone like him accept me? Was he forced in it? Of course they might have forced him. Then why doesn't he want divorce me, is it because he pity me? My heart sank thinking about it. I'm so unlovable, why would anyone love me.

My eyes were stinging with unshed tears, I can't cry not in front of anyone. I closed my eyes shut and leaned back on the seat, trying to control my emotions and my breathing.

Yeh rishta teen lafz ka mohtaaj bilkul nahi hai, hamare lafz nahi hamari roohein judi hai Amyrah. Mai tumse wada karta hu, jab tak yeh sansein hai tab tak tum yaha rahogi.

Lie

Everything is a lie.

Itna jhoot kyun bol rahein hai aap? Mai aap ke dil mein kaise reh sakti hu, jab meri saari zindagi sab ke qadmon mein guzri. Aap mujhe kaise pasand kar sakte hein jab mai khud ko bhi nahi dekh sakti.

The broken pieces of my heart can never be joined, and if anyone even tries to fix it they will bleed. I'll hurt them, and eventually they will feel disgusted by me and never look back at me. This is getting so hard.

We were back at the Uni and without wasting another minute I started walking to the house, my entire body was aching but I need to get back soon before they ban me from going tomorrow.

I increased my pace but my feet were burning, I tried to ignore the pain and after about 15 minutes I finally reached back. I knocked on the door and stood there for a minute. There was no response, I knocked again and it got opened.

"Hamaare kaan hai." (We have ears). Zubair opened the door with a scowl on his face.

I ignored him and walked past him, I went straight to the room and Zayna was laying on her bed like usual. Throwing the bag at the side of the bed and taking the towel and clothes, I went to take a relaxing shower.