ENAMOUR LOVE

Chapter 13.

The light illuminated in my hands under the dark sky. My hands were trembling and the reason is unknown. Is it because of the cold weather or that I'm holding the phone in my hands?

Yes, it's been a week but the fear in me didn't subside a bit. I'm terrified of using it. What if anyone catches me with it or what if I damage it. It's his Amanat with me and I have to be very careful.

I rechecked for the nth time whether it's on silent mode or not. It was around 4:30 am. The street light is giving me enough radiation, that soothes my senses. I'm terrified of darkness and I literally feel suffocated by it.

I opened the chats of the previous night and scrolled up, re-reading it again. The first semester will be held in the next month and the schedule is getting hectic. There are projects to do, records to write and the worst of all is giving presentations.

The cold breeze hit my body, giving me chills. It felt refreshing. The time of the Fajr prayer gives a strange peace. I closed my eyes and leaned back on the wall. The voice of the azaan echoed in the entire neighborhood and it took the heaviness from my body.

I opened my eyes after a few minutes and hid the phone in my dupatta. Quickly I descended down the stairs to my room and opened it slowly. Tip-toeing myself, I hid the phone in my bag.

After offering the Salah, I took the books and started preparing for the upcoming exams. At around 8, everyone woke up and had breakfast.

Well I only drank water and ate the 1/4 chapati. I can never eat a proper meal, either I become a puking mess or be on the bed the entire day. I walked back to the room and got ready for the day.

Finally I reached the Uni and messaged him. Walking to my class, I sat on my usual seat, with that Sariya came and sat beside me. We are friends again. She told me that she was being forced by her friends and did all of that. I let that go, and believed her. Maybe she genuinely was being forced by them.

Soon the class started and I got busy taking notes while Sariya went back to her other friends. They enjoy the classes and afterwards take my notes for completion.

The phone vibrated in my pocket and I slowly took it out.

A:
Waiting.

There was an attached pic to the message. He is waiting in the library. I glanced at the time and there were still 15 minutes left for this class.

Me
After 15 mins?
Please.

A:
Take your time.

I couldn't help but smile at that and wait for the next 15 minutes to pass quickly. But when it does waiting is easy. 15 minutes felt like 15 hours and the lecture felt like some gibberish language.

Finally the bell rang and within seconds I was out of the class. It's been two days that we haven't met cause of the weekend and I have no idea why I'm so desperate.

We have built a strange bond and that isn't like a married couple. It is more like best friends. We share our days, bicker and tease each other, well he teases most of the time. Sometimes he even teaches me, as there are some common subjects.

I don't know what I'll do after this year, he will be graduating and I'll be left alone for 3 more years. I'm still scared of how attached I got with him but it isn't in my control anymore. I feel so secure with him which I don't even feel with my brothers.

Attachments are my biggest fear and I tried hard for straight 2 weeks to ignore him and talk to the point but as each day passed, the only thing I learnt was maybe not every male species is dominant, nor they all are abusive.