Enveloped with Love! (Taekook)

CHAPTER XXXVI

July 21st, 2022 - Seoul - Outside Taehyung's residence

Getting into the car, Jeongguk fastened his seat belt with shaky hands. His vision was blurry with unshed tears and it took him a few too many tries to get the belt secured.

Putting it in gear and pushing the accelerator with as much force as possible, he swerved the car out of the block and onto the street.

It was past midnight and there wasn't much traffic as Jeongguk sped through, way over the speed limit.

His vision was terribly compromised because of the constant stream of tears.

He needed to slow down and compose himself but would it really matter if he just rams his car into a pole or something?

Does he even deserve to live after what he's done?

How could he do this? How could he hurt Taehyung like this?

Over and over, it was the same words that played in his head on repeat.

Jae-Hyun was dead...

I'm dying too.

Taehyung is in love with me....

And by extension I'm going to kill him too.

He could think of little else. How did it come to this?

Wiping his tears with his sleeve, he continued to speed. He sobbed as he broke all the signals, cars jerking to make way for him as he drove like a mad man.

It was such a harmless thing to reach out to Taehyung. Falling in love with him or having him fall in love with Jeongguk was never the plan but it happened nevertheless and now Jeongguk doesn't know what to do.

So many times he had imagined the older being in love with him just like he was in love with him, but now he hates it. He wishes upon every star, prays to every God out there to undo this.

To make this all go away... He cannot even bear the thought that Taehyung would be broken when he is gone.

He pressed on the accelerator even more and the car pushed ahead with more force. Gripping the steering wheel too hard, he kept the pressure, the car going so fast it was almost a blur.

Fresh tears gathered in his eyes but this time he didn't wipe them away. What's the point? New ones would come anyway.

He thought of Taehyung and his smile, his sweet giggles and warm hugs... his loving kisses and the passionate sex that they'd had. He was so happy... and now Jeongguk will have made sure, all of that is gone... Just like how he will be gone.

His mind elsewhere on Taehyung, he failed to notice the oncoming truck and just as the bright headlights blackened his vision, he swerved away from the road, collision missing from within an inch of both vehicles.

Sucking in big gulps of air, he tried to calm down. It was close, too close...

Reducing the pressure on the accelerator, Jeongguk tried to make it home all the while cursing his fate!

Reaching his building, he got out of the car with jerky legs and trembling hands not bothering to park the car in its usual spot. He entered the lobby and threw the keys at the security who looked at him puzzled but whatever he saw on his face, made him keep his mouth shut and go about his work.

Jeongguk kept telling himself to breathe all the way up the elevator which felt like forever, with his head spinning and vision blurry. He felt as if the walls were closing in on him and it was a miracle that he controlled the nausea.