Enveloped with Love! (Taekook)

CHAPTER XXXVII

July 30th, 2022 - Seoul - Jeongguk's residence

8 days.

It had been 8 days since he last heard Taehyung's voice.

8 days since he had been ignoring his phone calls.

8 days since he's been intentionally rude and distant with Taehyung.

His sweet, beautiful Taehyung who he is sure is hurting right now because Jeongguk has decided to make Taehyung hate him.

Jeongguk stared blankly outside his window as it poured heavily, trees swaying forcefully at the mercy of the harsh winds, lightning striking the sky ever so often... It was a storm like the one in his heart.

The last few days the entire city was on high alert with storm warnings which was in a way good, Jeongguk thought ruefully. He was worried that Taehyung would show up at his door and he was in no state to face the older. Because the second he sees him, all his resolve is going to crash. He will not be able to withhold himself from just crushing the elder in his arms and never let go!

But that would be selfish so he had stuck to texting, making lame excuses for his behavior.

These 8 days were some of the worst Jeongguk had faced. Every time he ignored the elder's calls, every time he sent an awfully rude reply to his texts, Jeongguk broke... Bit by bit, he broke as his fingers typed the most horrible stuff if at all.

It had taken its toll on him. It wasn't easy to be intentionally bad to the love of your life, no matter how noble your reasons! And so he had spent his time crying, moving around the house like a zombie, and crying some more.

He had continued with his dialysis and he had decided he would speak to his dads the day he ended it with Taehyung which he will do today, he thinks. Initially he thought he would carry on this way for a few weeks, treating Taehyung badly, but he doesn't think he has it in him anymore...to continue!

Was Taehyung spending his days crying? Is he eating or sleeping? Is it hurting him too much?

Of course, it's hurting him, what else is expected? But this way is better... Hurting a little now is better than being completely broken when Jeongguk is gone.

This way he will get used to being without Jeongguk too. Yes, for 8 days Taehyung had been constantly calling him and texting him which Jeongguk had ignored. But he will get used to it soon, or so Jeongguk hopes!

He hates himself for what he's doing which was made worse by Taehyung's behavior. The elder was patient as ever! No matter how many calls he ignored, how many rude replies he sent, Taehyung just took everything.

He had expected the elder to be angry, to lash out... Or at least ask him why he's being this way but Taehyung did no such thing. He was his usual loving self!

Sniffling and wiping his tears yet again, he settled under the sheets. It was still morning and he should get ready for his appointment with Dr. Jung, but he would have to cancel. There is no way he can face anyone at all today.

Because today is when he will end it... End things with Taehyung. 

Let him off the hook...

Let him be free...

It will hurt, it will be painful but it was necessary.. The lesser of the two evils if you will!

He opened his chats with the elder on his phone and went through them. All sweet words, understanding words no matter what crap Jeongguk threw at him.

My angel...I'm so sorry... I love you so much!

Tears ran down his cheeks as he sobbed. His eyes gliding over each text. And those I love yous... How he wishes he could say it back!