Forbidden Treasure ✓

13.) Need help.

Onalerona's POV

I'm not going to bother listening to Rendani's advice and how I'm supposed to drag her. I'm not letting Rea walk over me it's just that she always has a bone to pick with me and i pick and choose my battles wisely. She doesn't know how dangerous Rea can get when unhinged and i don't want to experience that again. Once bitten, twice shy, thrice a fool.

I take my bible and open the book of Romans and pick a verse and i decide on Romans 8:18 and it says: "Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later." I resonate with this verse so much. You know sometimes in life we have the tendency to ask God why we are suffering as much as we are or we give up because we are tired.

But God promises us in the end He will reveal his glory to us. The joy that we will experience is going to be nothing that we have ever experienced. I know some days it's easier than others but then we must hold onto the fact that everything will be okay. We must also remember that God has already conquered which means we are already victorious we just need to get through it.

Every good or struggle that I face, God uses it for my own good and i can rest knowing that everything will be okay. Sometimes I have the tendency to agree with scripture and be like yeah I will apply it in my life but when tough times come I forget about these scriptures but I've gotten better at it now. When I pray I'm able to incorporate the verse that matches my situation and i see the change in my life.

Yeah not everything is perfect but then I feel more at peace then I've ever been. I no longer drown in hurt or pain that the people cause me. Some people might mistaken that for letting them walk over me but it's just me choosing peace over violence. Not every situation needs a reaction out of me some things are not worth it.

I'll only fight when necessary but for now I'll let her be with her delusions. I don't know why she is still hung up over me because she got what she wanted which was Nkosikhona so there should be no issue. Or maybe she's intimidated because I'm back and she thinks I might spill the truth? No I've off-ramped too much now.

Let me stop thinking about her she's going to give me stress and i don't need that. I finish bible study and i get off the bed and go on my knees so that I can pray. I pray for protection, forgiveness and everything that I need and i also vent to him about this woman that has a bone to pick with me and nobody knows why.

She should just back off from me and allow me to live my life the same way I let her have him. She be taking out her frustrations and insecurities on the wrong person. I finish the prayer and do a little cross and say amen. I'm so tired right now. Today was a long day at work and besides it being a long day I was too busy being consumed in my own thoughts about Rea. But tomorrow we are forgetting about her permanently.

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I take the plates to the kitchen and Ayola comes in with the big bowls. I pour water into the sink and we start washing the dishes. "You know i understand why you choosing your own peace instead of entertaining her nonsensical behavior." she says. "You do?" "Yeah I get you and i think it's actually the best thing to do."

"It feels good to know that I'm not the only one feeling this way. Look I get that Rendani is looking out for me and she cares for me and doesn't want to see me getting trampled over or whatever she calls it but to be honest certain fights aren't worth it at all." I say. "I get you. I think Rea has her own issues and unfortunately she is taking out her frustrations on you." she says.

"Do you know these issues?" I ask. "Don't tell anyone I told you this but their marriage is arranged." she says and looks around to make sure no one heard that. "What do you mean arranged?" "They went the traditional route. Nkosikhona doesn't love her but she does. I think that's the issue, trying to get him to love her you know."