I See you, Y/N. (Emily Prentiss X Reader)

-62- trying to heal Something

Y/N's POV
A few Weeks later

"Hey honey." JJ greets me as she gets out of the car and rushes to help me.
We load the crutches into the trunk together and she leads me to the passenger seat, where she helps me get in.
I sit down with an exhausted sigh and massage my throbbing temples while JJ sits in the drivers seat.
"Hard day?" She asks and rests a hand on my shoulder.
I take a deep breath and lean my head sideways against the headrest to look at her, then I nod.

For a few weeks now, I've been going once a week, first to talk therapy with Dr. Graham and then straight to physiotherapy.
It's a real therapy marathon that robs me of my strength every time.
But that's the only way I've been able to get everything under control without making too much trouble for others.
Afterwards, either JJ or Emily pick me up and drive me home so that I can relax after such a long day.
I'm not allowed to be home alone on this upsetting day.
Because no matter how often I assure them that I'm feeling okay and don't plan on trying again, they're very worried about me and sometimes I notice them looking at me with furrowed eyebrows and watery eyes, a painful expression on their faces.
In order not to worry them more than I already do, I let them both help me and even though the dark thoughts are far from gone, I smile and fight and remain optimistic.
They deserve to think about a positive future.
Maybe I'll be able to do it again someday.

"But no pain, no gain, right..." I add with a weak smile to lighten the mood.

"You are a brave one." JJ remarks and brushes a strand of hair out of my face, then playfully pokes me on the nose.
At that moment her cell phone announces a text message and she glances at it, her eyebrows furrowed in concentration.

"I can also take the bus home if you have something more important to do." I interject, like I do every week.

Even though I appreciate her and Emily's support, I find it incredibly uncomfortable to make so much trouble.

JJ lets her cell phone slide into the center console and then cups my face with both hands to look at me intently.

"You are the most important thing, honey.
You are my family and I will not let anyone take away my right to stand by you." She reminds me of her promise with a loving smile.

"Thank you." I breathe with tears in my eyes and lean into her touch for a moment.

"It's a pleasure, honey." JJ replies with a sad undertone, I can see from her look that she is back in the hospital in her thoughts and is sitting by my bed, unsure whether I will wake up again.

And whether I even want that.

"Do you have to work today?" I quickly change the subject to redirect her thoughts.
JJ blinks away her tears and gives me a smile before answering.
"No, I'm done for today. So the afternoon is all ours." She winks at me and then nudges my nose lovingly.
"Are you very tired? Or would you like to go on a little trip?"
Her eyes flash at me expectantly and even though every cell in my body seems to hurt, I don't want to disappoint JJ and try to put on a cheerful face.
"A trip sounds good." I answer and the glow that brightens JJ's face makes me forget my exhaustion a little.
"Really? Wonderful." She calls out happily and brushes a strand of hair from my face.
"You can sleep a little, I'll let you know when we get there."
She starts the car and pulls out of the parking space.
I shake my head, but then lean it exhaustedly against the headrest and blink at JJ to stay awake.

"Where are we going?" I mutter as my eyes slowly close and I fall into a sleep so deep that I can no longer hear JJ's answer.
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