Ang sabi ko, hahanap ako ng tutulong sa 'kin mag-explore. Almost 2 hours na ako rito sa club pero parang gusto ko lang manuntok ng kung sino man.
"Ano? Wala ka pa rin ba'ng nakikitang type mo?" Knox asked who's seating beside me. "Ay, wala ka pa lang type. What I mean is, wala ka pa ba nakikitang mukhang pagkaka-interesan mo?"
Usapang interes pala eh, eh 'di si Raizen ang sagot diyan.
I just want to fucking pull out my hair for thinking of Raizen again. Hindi na talaga ako tinatanan. Oo, interesado ako sa kaniya- inaamin ko na 'yon.
"Siya talaga, Knox." Tanging nasagot ko.
"And it's easy for you to admit it like that? That you like a guy? Wala man lang confusion or panic?"
Panic that I'm interested in a guy? For what? Ako 'to oh? Yung lalaking kung ano-ano pinagkaka-interesan. This could be a phase, this could be something that would change my life forever— no one knows and I'll just go dive deeper into it. I'm not the explorer kind of guy but I let things that should happen, happen.
But panicking that I'm interested in Raizen? Maybe. Bakit sa anak pa ng senador? Bakit sa kaniya pa na babaguhin ang sarili para mag-fit sa narrative ng iba? Bakit doon pa sa lalaking 'yon na kahit sa sarili nagsisinungaling?
Gusto kong bumalik sa araw na kung saan inis lang nararamdaman ko sa kaniya- for being the fake perfect son of Senator Rommel. Bakit kailangan ko pa siya makilala sa kung sino ba talaga siya?
Why does he have to let me see things right through him? Is he even letting me? Or I just made my own way to his life?
At ang mas nakakainis doon, gusto ko pa siyang makilala lalo. Gusto kong isa ako sa mga taong pagkakatiwalaan niya sa kung sino ba talaga siya.
"You know what? Let's go home. What you need is to think and reflect, not get wasted." Ginabayan ako ni Knox palabas ng club dahil lasing na ako. Hindi na ako pumalag, tama naman siya.
xx
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09:47 am
Archer:
May klase ba kayo?
Knox:
hulaan m ya
Ian:
ata
Conrad:
medyo
Archer:
Tangina niyo, wala kayong kwenta
Knox:
shux papi galit agad 🥵
Archer:
Wala ba available sainyo? Ikaw, @Tio?
Tio:
I have a class.
Conrad:
bkt b ya bz aq
Ian:
aq rin,,
Knox:
BINABASA MO ANG
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