mafia's promise

15

Namjoon's Pov -

I groaned with my eyes wide open with the sound of alarm I looked for my phone to check the time.
it's only 7 o'clock, I saw Jin sleeping next to me, He looks so innocent . His eyes are still swollen. And he got a pretty little pout on his face, He turned another side in his sleep, troubled by the sound of this stupid alram clock, I slowly got up from my place to turn off the alarm, not wanting to wake him up.

After switching off the alarm, I placed my hand on Jin's forehead and checked his temperature, which has come down a bit now but he still has a slight fever. I am so bad, I troubled him so much and because of me his fever increased further last night.

I made my way to the bathroom now
I've lost my sleep, I have to do something about his fever, before it gets worse, After showering and completing my morning routine, I came out of the bathroom, And saw Jin is still sleeping peacefully

I called my family doctor, and asked him to come and check on Jin
Getting ready for the day, I went to Jin and held his hand, sitting beside him.
I caressed his face and saw him leaning on my hand, feeling comforted by its warmth seeing this a smile made his way to my face, he's so cute, fragile and delicate which sometimes scares me a lot,

I leaned in to kiss his forehead, And as soon as my lips touched his head, a single tear dropped from my eyes despite my unwillingness to do so. I closed my eyes to stop more tears from flowing and kept my lips on his head for a little longer.

No matter how angry I get on him but I can't bear to see him like this. The one who gives me coolness in the fire of this world is burning with fever and I was unable to take care of him just because of my  anger. I shouldn't have left him like this

But what should I do? I know that if I had stayed here, I might have hurt him with my words or actions. I know that my anger is beyond my control that's why I always try to keep him away from my angry side.

No matter who I am, there is a person inside me who Love's you the most in this world and can do anything for you my love,

I removed my lips from his head and placed them on his cheeks. please forgive me jin I have always been within my limits but now this is not longer in my control. After knowing about your meeting with Mi-ho I'm finding it difficult to control my emotions

It was just a meeting but I don't know why it is giving me so much pain that it is becoming difficult for me to bear it.

I pulled myself back away from him and looked at his sleeping face wiping away my tear's with my hand

I myself am surprised to see this form of mine. I'm a mafia who hurt people and make them beg for their death.
But look today I am crying over such a small thing, Tears are coming out of my eyes for you, I feel so weak in front of you

I have come to this point today Where I can't do anything, today I am helpless, I just want to see now what you will do, Will you tell me about meeting Miho?

But first I want to know the reason why you went to meet my enemy without my consent. What did you have to talk to him that you had to go to meet him secretly?

Why are you forgetting that he is my enemy ? he can use you against me and hurt you, I have to do something to break your contact with him.

I was lost in my own world but The sound at the door diverted my attention. I cleaned my face, not wanting anyone to see me in this condition. After uttering a come in word in my usual cold voice , I got up from next to jin and made my way to the window

" sir the doctor is here " A servant opened the door with the doctor
Beside him and bowed to him

Namjoon hummed in response and signals the servant to leave