Iman Harriott ~Alistair kept on going on about therapy this therapy that. I just accepted his word and told him I'd try it out. In all fairness without him trying to shove his suggestion down my throat, I was going to take up on his offer anyways.
I took some time to myself during one of the breaks and I really thought to myself "maybe I should try it out". I've never really had therapy before because I never thought to myself that I needed it.
I think I see it that way because I've got everything that I worked hard for. I've got great friends, a nice home, money and a job that I love. But set aside that, I don't have healing. I thought I did, but having the time to reflect over the weekend, I indeed did not have that.
I like my me time, but it gets lonely at times. I'm a single woman in their thirties that couldn't get their relationship right. I'm at the point when I should be settled...but then again I'm only just in my early thirties. I shouldn't rush love. I also have a bunch of trauma from uni that needs sorting out. That was ten plus years ago, I should be over that...but I'm not.
So I'm going to give this therapy thing a shot and if I like I'll settle with the sessions, if not...you won't catch me there at all.
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"I SAID YES!!!!" Jasmine's face lit up in excitement on FaceTime
"Oh girl let's me have a good look at this ring" Mariah brought her face closer to the screen, as Jasmine flipped her camera over to show off her new engagement ring
"It's so beautiful- like it fits you so perfectly" I eyed the ring on her finger
Yes Dimitri showed me the ring, but honestly seeing it again on Jasmine's ring finger, is even more beautiful.
"It really is- congratulation guys" Mariah congratulated, with a happy pout on her face
"I know you're so excited-" I piped up "- I know it's fresh, but have you made any plans for your wedding as yet?" I asked
"Nope not as yet but I can't wait. However...I do know who my bridesmaids will be..."
"Who!" Mariah and I both said in eagerness
"You know...some of my girls that you guys haven't met and the both of yous!"
Now am I wrong for saying that I don't know how to feel about this situation?...
I say this not to be ungrateful, I'm happy that I can get to be apart of the experience again. I just thought based on the conversation Dimitri and had last week, that he'd changed up the traditions a little bit and have me as a brides- groom whatever they call it. Only because I'm very close with Dimitri.
This was probably a conversation that Jasmine and Dimitri had together. I can't even tell Dimitri about this because he'll tell Jasmine and he has every right to. That's his soon to be wife, he wants her to be happy.
So I don't know how I should feel. Like I'm not mad about it, but I wouldn't say I'm not happy about it. I just don't know how to feel.
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"Now should I be mad that Jasmine chose me as a bridesmaid, but but Dimitri didn't want me as his?"
"Thank you for asking Iman, I'm recovering from covid very well" Alex spoke with an attitude, but made me realise that I didn't come of properly on the phone call
"Oh sorry my bad, let me start over again. How are you doing Alex, and I mean it?"
"Much better" Alex sounded content on the phone "Also I'd say ask Dimitri about it.."
"No I can't do that"
"Why?" Alex acted as if there was no reason not for me to do so
"He'll tell Jasmine and then Jasmine won't be too happy about it and that could cause an unwanted problem"
"Well..." Alex paused "it's either that or you suck it up and be happy she chose you to be apart of her wedding. It's a fucking honour and there you go finding a problem"
"If you wanted an invite to the wedding just say that..."
"IMAN!" Alex called out my name
"No I'm just playing-" I giggled "- I get were you're coming from. I just didn't know how to feel about it because I was feeling in the middle about it."
"And that's understandable..." Alex came to some sort of agreement "So how are you getting on with your boyfriend-"
"Alex, man you know he's not my boyfriend" I sighed
"I don't know Iman, I look like I may have some competition"
"Well...you'll be competing by yourself when the Lord himself decides to come down" I joked
"Not you trying to play hard to get, you know you want me"
I laughed.
Fucking joke man.
"It must've been a different Iman because it definitely wasn't me saying all of that"
"No...you're the only Iman I know" Alex spoke in confidence "...and the only Iman that I want to link up with after my isolation is done"
"Oh yeah I remember, you'll be a free man soon"
"That's right...That's right..."
"I think we should catch up in person before you come back to work next Monday" I suggested
"Not you wanting to see me that bad"
"I will ask Alistair-"
"Chill I'm playing" Alex cut me off
Brudda I was never going to ask Alistair. He thinks Alistair is trying to take him away from me or something. I'm just playing along with his game.
"What have you got in mind?" Alex asked
"Well I can't do Saturday because I'm going to brunch with my girls, but I can do Sunday-"
"Mhm I can work with that- golf"
"Alex you know I can't play golf for shit!" I complained
"That's why I suggested it" he laughed wickedly
"I don't even know if you're not that good either so I might surprise you, you know"
"Not even"
"Watch me..."

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