My Posh idiot (BOOK 2)

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Iman Harriott ~

I really miss my man...

...Wait I'm joking, he's not my man...as yet...

I sound so delusional thinking that Alistair could be mine once again, but I cannot help it. It's going to be weird not having to see him for a couple of days...well of course if he wants to sneak in my department during his lunch breaks, that is fine by me.

Amaya comes first, and she is my priority. Also this may be an opportunity to really show me if Alistair really wants to be with me, since we won't be seeing each other that often. I know he's told me he's falling for me and such, but he has a wife at home and god knows what they could be doing.

I felt my phone vibrate which was in the compartment beside my gear stick. I got a quick glance of the notification, which was sent by Alistair, reading "I miss you".

I could feel my face heat up in happiness, as I couldn't help but contain a big smile on my face. I felt like a secondary school student all over again, having their first kiss. I don't know, it just made me really happy inside.

"Who has got you smiling like that, Iman?" Amaya peeped, taking me out of my thoughts

"Oh, it was a man that I met on holiday..." I lied

She can't know. This incident has kind of allowed us to get closer, but she can't know- I haven't even told Mariah. I don't even think Mariah would want to know this nonsense as yet. She literally had a baby, I don't want to add onto her postpartum. If I was to tell her though, she'd kill him and then try to kill me while she's trying to slap some sense into me.

"Oh, am I allowed to ask more questions, I don't want to feel like I'm intruding in your business?" Amaya asked respectfully

As long as she doesn't ask about Alistair, that's fine.

"Of course you can, you don't have to ask you know..." I laughed

"How did you guys meet on holiday?" She asked

"We met on my bestfriend's wedding, and the said man happened to be his cousin as well. Dimitri, my bestfriend was practically selling me off to him-" I laughed, remembering the moment "-but I was already sold, based on the respect he gave to me..."

"...he's different from the men I have encountered, maybe because I haven't really been in a lot of relationships, but he has a charm about him. I would've thought it was cringe back in the day, but I don't know what I would do if I would have never met him..."

And why the fuck was that?...no honestly what on earth?

I wasn't even lying on the part as well. Those are genuine feelings in how I feel about Adonis. I must've got a lot in explaining how I met him to Amaya, that I ended up spilling feelings that I didn't even know I had.

My heart felt heavy for a moment, but I think maybe it is due to guilt. The energy I have put in for Alistair, is the energy I should've used for Adonis. I don't text him that much, nor call him- I don't even think about him, and when I do, it's only because I'm afraid that Alistair will still stay with Alana.

The right thing to do will be to end it, but I can't. I don't want to do something I'll regret. I had a similar feeling last week about wasting Adonis time, but I also said I wanted to put in effort in trying because I haven't. All that effort left when I got back to England. Maybe this break with not seeing Alistair for a bit may allow me to grow closer with Adonis.

"Are you there Iman..." the voice of Amaya, snapped me

"Shit- sorry I shouldn't do that, especially with driving..." I apologised "...just lost in thought..."

"It's okay, I can tell you really care for him..."

"Do you think?" I questioned, not even thinking that assumption is true

"Yes, you spoke so fond of him, a person that wouldn't care for someone would not do such a thing"

"I suppose..." I shrugged my shoulders

I don't think I care for him, because if I did care for him, I would've stopped entertaining Alistair a long time ago. He even gave me the option to, but that was never going to happen. Please he does not see Adonis as a threat, that's why he's still doing what he wants with me and I shamelessly allow it.

"Are you okay Iman?" Amaya softly

"Amaya..."

I cannot believe I am going to ask her this

"...hypothetically, say you were in a situation where you are in a relationship with someone, but you feel like your heart is with someone else?..." I asked, finally pulling up to the destination which was my home

"The best thing you can do is to be honest with yourself. It is probably easier said than done. I can only speak on what I know and not what I have experienced, but do what's best for you. You don't want to end up having regrets in the future..."

- Amaya coming in with facts or is there truth behind it...

A/N: Also sorry for the very short chapter, the next one will be longer and you're in luck as I'll be posting on Valentine's Day.

Feeling are becoming more and more serious👀