My Posh idiot (BOOK 2)

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10 years ago

"You look so beautiful..." I walked into Mariah's dressing room, as I watched her admire herself in her wedding dress

"Aw thank you much Iman..." Mariah twirled in her dress, all happy and giggly "...you look so beautiful to Iman, my beautiful best friend is my first ever bridesmaid..." she went up to me

I just know that she wanted to squish my face in a cuteness aggressive manner.

"I cannot believe you're getting married in a couple of minutes. Who would've thought that after graduating and marrying the love of your life!" I was so hyped for her

"I know right, but one thing Iman, before I get married, I need you to tell me what's going on with you"

"What do you mean, I'm perfectly fine" I shrugged my shoulders at the bold face lie I told to her

"I can tell that you are lying Iman..." Mariah looked me in my face, knowing I couldn't fool her

"Do you promise not to judge? I just don't want to make it about me you know. Today is your day-"

"It will only make it my day, knowing that you are happy instead of sad...and I promise I won't judge you, I'm not even perfect myself" Mariah reassured me

Well here goes nothing...

"Alistair and I kissed..." I stated, leaving her silent as her eyes went wide

"Like kiss by accident? or kiss like 'made-out-might-get-back-together-kiss'?' " Mariah asked

"I don't even know, I ran away right after we did, so I couldn't even process it properly" I explained to her

I don't even know the facial expression he made afterwards. I just broke away, got up and ran, never to see him again, until in a couple of minutes when I enter the church.

"How long have you been keeping this to yourself Iman?" Mariah asked in a concerned tone

"A month, it happened during graduation night when everyone went out. I couldn't get any sleep so I decided to get some fresh air and I saw him out there, chilling on his ones on the field. We spoke and decided to forgive him as he was weighing on my mind before we graduated. I guess we got lost in the conversation and boom we went into kissing each other..."

"Oh Iman, why would you keep this stuff from me. You were worrying over that no good boy, making yourself sick when you could've spoken to me" I could feel the disappointment in her voice

I didn't say anything. All I did was try my hardest not to sob. I didn't know why I was still feeling this way. Was it possible that all of my hard work from moving on from him actually didn't take any affect? Do I still have feeling for him?

"Look Iman-" Mariah held my hands "- the last thing that I want you to do is to get upset and even if you do, I will delay this whole wedding because I can't be happy if you're not. Hugo has told me that Alistair has been down for a bit, he's not sure why, but I'm guessing it's about you. You guys need to go and talk to each other..."

Present day

Iman Harriott ~

"Good morning- you look stunning" Alistair kissed and complimented me, as entering into my dressing room

"Good morning to you and no I do not- I'm literally in loungewear" I rolled my eyes playfully

"Harriott, you could be wearing a rubbish bag and I'll still tell you how unreal you look..." Alistair stated, unbothered

Alistair handed me an a4 sized brown envelope, which was the information about Harry Villers. I just hope this helps with my theory that Harry is behind the attack that happened to Amaya. Like even Amaya believes that he has some play into it.

"Thank you..." I said, as Alistair handed me the envelope

"I suggest reading this alone after work...there is a lot of sick shit that I found-" Alistair warned me "- I did not want to research any further, but if it meant helping you, then I'd do anything..."

I didn't say anything, as my body responded with giving him a really tight hug. I'm really appreciative of him so much. I was nearly on my tip toes as I didn't want to let go of him, resting my face in the crook of his neck. He quickly went to embrace me back, wrapping his arms around my waist.

"Thank you- like really thank you. I don't even know what I would do if I didn't have your help"

"You know I'm always going to be here for you" he stated, as I pulled my head away from the crook of his neck to look at him, but was still in his embrace

"Do you really mean that?" I asked him

"Yes of course I do..." he reassured me in a positive tone, but switched, as he started to become concerned "...Why? What's wrong Iman?"

I sighed, not looking at him anymore, but more so at the ground "I was upset yesterday, like not at you, but more so at the situation we are in. I really lo- like you Alistair, I just wished you were more accessible to me you know. I'm becoming uncomfortable being a secret now..."

In other words, hurry up and leave your wife before the tabloids make you do.

"Iman I don't think you understand how badly I just want it to be the two of us again-"

"So what is taking you so long then. I don't want to force you to make your decision for you, but you told me you're falling for me. You buy me gifts, you make me food, we text and call each other all the time, you've even stayed over. You cannot stay away from me and I don't want you to. I knew what I was getting into, but my heart cannot take it anymore, I want to be with you- I don't want to be with no one else- Do you still love Alana?"

I didn't care anymore. This is the first time I've properly opened up my feelings towards Alistair on how I feel about him. I need him to know how I feel because maybe that's what's stalling him into being with me officially. I cried myself to sleep last night. I'm starting to feel how I felt when I didn't know if we were to date again, because I kept my feelings in for so long. I have so many things going on in my life and having him would make everything better.

Alistair was about to open his mouth and talk, but a knock, which I'm guessing my stylist sounded. I wanted her to leave so badly, but we are running on a schedule and I can't mess this up.

"JUST A SECOND!" I shouted

"This is going to be weird..." Alistair muttered

"I don't care, it's none of her business as to why you are here..." we broke away from each other "we will finish this conversation another time in person" I made clear

"I know..." Alistair calmly nodded "...Have a great day and be safe later on- I will be thinking about you..." Alistair kissed me on my cheek before making his way to the door, as he let himself out

I watched him. He didn't even look back at me. Dickhead. Now I feel stupid even opening up like that and feeling like a beg. He was too calm, while I was on verge of crashing out because I held onto my true feelings. Like why did he not try to fight to still have the conversation. At least it would've showed that he cared. I want to think he didn't want to upset me before work, but he didn't even look at me. He acted as if it was nothing.

Urgh!