Scatter Hearts

Willow's notes to Orion

"Orion,

I'm not sure if you'll ever see this, but I've been learning chinese

我愛你(Wǒ ài nǐ)

"

Orion,

Your kindness is appreciated very much ~

And I love you alot with all my heart, and I'm sorry that  I dont say that often enough"

"

'Love isnt easy '

You let me into your life,

you let me love you,

despite your strife,

I still came through,

for you

When I finally let down my walls,

and caved when I thought that they would all,

Come tumbling down,

but-

who knew we'd be heaven bound?

When I happily gave into my temptation,

and let you in,

so you could love me "

" 'Numb'

this emptiness inside,

I want to disappear and hide,

want to feel,

it does nothing to heal,

nothing is a mood,

I wish I could,

escape from,

but even then,

comes remaining gloom within.

Paralyzing fear,

its hard to hear,

my own heart,

in this ocean of thoughts,

I can not find peace, at the start,

but then my voice, it is caught,

with the tears I forgot,

and sleep I fall in,

when comes the dawn. "

" Will we fight very much? I dont want to fight against you, I just want to be understood."

"Would you help me with personal stuff?"

"How will we sleep spending the night at Grandma and Grandpas house? The bed is comfy, but small."

"When we go on trips and stuff, would you go with us? You're basically family (to me) so.. yes?"

"Would you be okay with me proposing to you?"

"  If I lost my voice , like permanently  or not would you still feel the same about me? would you still love me?"

"Was there ever a time you wished I was Odette? Or someone else?"

"Would you and I push each other off the bed by accident at night?"

"Sometimes on Snapgram, I want to like your posts. But that would tell you I seen it. right now...

that wouldn't be very wise. Fuck! I wish you liked me. Loved me. Wanted me."

"

'This love'

Kiss me slow,

tell me you love me so,

hold me close,

I want to do this the most,

Hug me till your heart starts to pound,

tell me, do i look lovely in this gown?

Dance with me,

just as clumsy."

"Would you play playstation with me?"

"I didn't mean to break your heart, Ori. What ever I did.. I'm sorry.  I never meant to push you away. I didn't know you can love someone too much.."

"I hope you're okay. I want to be with you. I can't hold it in sometimes. I just want to tell you I love you."

"I'm sorry I can't heal you anymore."

"Was there ever a time you just straight up wanted to leave?"

"Would you help me when I can't sleep at night? Would you back me up when I wasn't on my phone?"

"You make me happy. You've opened my eyes. I now know what love is. I dont want to lose what we had.."

"Would you still want to be with me forever?"

"I love you, Orion. I wish you could see that, the way I do."

"Would you follow me around like you used to?( I got used to it, but I actually like it. Feels like we're on the same page)"

"Do you love me?"

"I-I need you. I cant live here alone forever. I- I dont  want to be alone. I dont want to be without you anymore."

"Would you do fun and stupid shit with me?"

"Would you kiss me like you used to?"

"Do you remember me?"

"I have so many things  I never asked you.."

"Please love me with all your heart.."

" I really miss you. I wonder If you'd write letters with me, right by each other's side"

"Will we still do cute little things for each other when we're older?"