Scatter Hearts

Other letters Willow wrote but never sent

"Our burial wishes-

O+W

He told me that if he dies before me, he wants to be buried in the ground and have a cherry tree planted in his chest (Or the soil above)

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I want to be buried with my childhood plushes- stitch and Dumbledorff (the brown rabbit with the voice box in the paw) : The two loves I will cherish forever. "

" My love is like a song, you sing in your heart. When we meet, our songs synchronize and its a melody. My heart is a broken puzzle and only you have the pieces. You complete me, and I, you. Keep this note close to your chest.We harmonize better that way. Love is like music, its better when theres two instruments instead of one. "

"Would you still sing to me?"

" Would you fall even more in love with me?"

" Did I ever annoy you? Like at all?"

"I love you so, so much, Ori. I want so badly to tell you. But I know realistically you dont care how I feel. You probably dont even care about me.."

"Would you kiss me again?"

" You're my dream guy. My dream,- period, no questions asked. You're all  I want. All I need. You're the only one I want to call mine. You're the only one I want to kiss. To wake up to. To die beside. To marry. To hug each day. To have. To honor."

"I'm sorry if this is too personal, but did you ever hate your birth dad?"

"Would you get lost in my eyes again?"

"I love you. Would you still tell me all the time? Like you used to?"

"What happened to us? I know I wasn't the best to you. I tried. I dont want it to be this way. I want us to work. I dont want to go on without you."

"Why did you fall in love with Odette? Like in the first place?"

"Orion, I'm in love with you. You make me so happy.I dont want to be with any one else. Do you know why? Because no one treats me like you do. You make sure I feel happy and special."

"Would you love me more than you can say?"

"Its sad, but sometimes it just occurs to me, 'even Orion doesn't want you' and I remember I want to die. I hate it here. I hate my life. I should hate you, but I dont."

"I always felt special when you called me Baby or yours. Or any nickname."

"Would you let me make you nervous again?"

"Would you want to make me nervous again?"

"Would you still want a future with me?"

"Would you want to be with me forever?"

"You know, I keep realizing things about us everyday? Like - things I never noticed before..

You loved me so much, you trusted me blindly ..<3

You put up with me and my weirdness to make both of us happy."

"Would you let me listen to your heartbeat again?"

"I love you so much Orion. you know, I forgot something long ago; love always wins. Love always finds a way. I know you'll love me back again one day. I cant wait."

"Your love, your smile, it drives me crazy, and for awhile, I forgot that its not just you and me. Your gaze, your demeanor, your essence, I see the moons crescent, in your eyes, as we sit up here, without fear."

"1/19/22

I miss you. I 've realized; I dont want anyone else to hold me, to touch me, to hug me, to kiss me- Aside from you. I dont want to be anyone's; I want to be yours. I dont want to be anyone's love, I want to be your love. I want to be seen by you again. I wish you were here with me. I write poetry and stories to try and ease the pain, but.. Its all the same. Theyre excuses. Excuses to ignore the fact that you're gone, and dont want me anymore.

I know you dont care but it hurts immensely. And Im sorry.

-Willow. "

"I love you. I know I shouldn't question it because .. last time. I didn't wanna lose you.-

but sometimes I wonder.. why did you love me? I just want to understand. I don't see what you do.. in me. Sometimes I wish I could. No I didn't lie, I just thought I saw what you did a few times. Now that I think about it, I don't think I ever did.

What changed? Why don't you like me anymore? I know what you meant by it's stronger now. I love you. I want you to know how much. I found a way through aside from feelings to express to you covertly what I love you feels like for me,- about you. I want to tell you everyday. But I-.. can't. I'm so alone and all this pent up energy and love; I-

I bring it out into poetry. I feel a little drained, but..I don't mind. I can't get it out into the universe (anonymously) any other way. Because the simplest way is blocked. I-I can't reach you.

You cut me out.."