Mysterious Twins ~An Ouran High school Host club Fan fiction~

{18} Deep Deep Down

Raven's POV

I know this is going to sound weird- but honestly deep deep deep down I didn't blame those twins. It was my fault... I should've just told them that I couldn't swim- but I know I never could've.

Because also deep deep deep down I was scared. Scared of what they thought of me. Why? Because who isn't.

I didn't want to go back to how it was before.

•~Years Prior to mamas death~•

Papa. He was tall. Too tall for me to understand how me and Skye were this short.

Papa also had dark brown hair. So dark, once again too dark for me to understand why our hair was so light.

Papa was also so mean. Cruel even. So cruel that I couldn't understand why mama would mary him. He might've been nice before, but how could someone so nice turn so mean?

I had so many questions, but no one to ask them to. I could ask mama, but she was often out, and when she was in, papa usually kept her away from us.

One day, when papa was still out but mama was home, I decided to ask one of my many millions of questions.

"Mama?" I asked miserably. I had lost count of how many days we had gone without a full meal. It was torture. She looked lien towards me and tilted her head in response.

"Why can't we have friends? Do you want me and Skye to be sad?" I asked her causing her to kneel down beside me, sending me a reassuring smile.

"No honey. I want you to be happy, but papa does not. He doesn't want you to be sad... But he just doesn't... Understand. " She replied picking out certain words. I looked up at her, my 10 year old eyes gleaming. We were just taken out of school a couple months ago, as soon as father lost his job. But those couple of months felt more like years.

"So why can't we have friends?" I asked again sadly. I had lost hope a little today. Some days were better than others. Sometimes papa came home and went right to bed, to drunk to carry on with the day. Other times, he hadn't drakes all day, so we would get to watch him as he went from mostly sober to fully drunk.

"Darling, I don't know. I want you to be happy but I'm scared. I can't go against your fathers word or else-" she was cut off by the door slamming open. But I know what she would've said. A while ago papa told mama that if she told anyone about him, that he wouldn't hesitate to kill me and Skye right in front of her and than kill her. I knew she was worried for us, so it was hard to blame her.

"Oi! Raven. Come here for a minute." Papa ordered sitting down in a recliner. I nodded and got a worried look from both mama and Nii-chan.

"Yes Father?" I asked forcefully. He flashed a smile that quickly turned into a hard frown. It was an angry frown, and it scared me too. But I didn't flinch nor move. Instead I sat down in front of him on my knees.

"I heard from a little birdie that you wanted to know why you can't have friends? Eh? IS THAT RIGHT?!" He screeched, and this time I flinched. He was probably standing outside the door. I'm so stupid...

"Well, I'm here to tell you-" he paused to grab the top of my head, pulling my small frame up by my hair. I moved my arms up self consciously, but paused as he pulled me up higher. "You are unworthy of friends. You scum that caused me to lose my job and my mind, you little lady, are unworthy of friends." He finished letting go of my hair and letting me fall to the floor. Tears stung my eyes and a couple tears spilled out. I didn't want to give in. But I couldn't control it anymore. I cried as Skye rushed to my side to reassure me that wasn't true. I wish she wouldn't have, because than papa lifted her up the same way he lifted me, and put her down with a slap.