Confession

Chapter 73

Forgiveness
VINISHA

Two months later

I sigh deeply while flipping the pages of the book lying in front of me.

My face resting on my palm and my eyes lazily looking down at the book.

I couldn't understand a sentence. What has happened to me? It feels like I am losing interest in my studies.

The earlier days of my college were good. I was excited to learn about new things but now it all feels so boring.

And the bad news is...my 2nd semester is over and my results are not so satisfying. My name was in the last of the topper's list.

Me, who always used to come 1st in my school was now the 10th ranker of my class.

This is not done.

It's just I am always lost during my lectures. I don't even understand what the professor is trying to explain.

At last, I had to either come to the library for self study or watch youtube videos to understand the concept.

But still, I always get distracted. Everytime I try to study, my attention automatically goes back to my phone as I urge to call Aryan and listen to his voice or atleast text him to ask how is he doing.

We do talk on video call all night. But still, it's not enough for me. I miss his presence. He was like a habit for me that I can't get over it even if I try my best.

Everyday I tell myself that one year has already passed and I just need to go through more two years somehow. I tell myself that I have to score good and better my academic performance.

I left my house, I agreed to be in a long distance relationship with Aryan just to get into this university and study my desired course.

So, I have to give my best.

But my mind always find some sort of distraction that I couldn't focus on my studies.

My second year of college has started. I have to do something about not getting distracted because of Aryan's thoughts.

With that I sigh again and focus back on my book. But then, someone taps on my table, disturbing me.

I huff and look up at the person who killed my determination to focus on my book.

But then, my eyes widen in shock when I find Rohan standing in front of me.

"Hey!" He smiles lightly.

I gulp nervously and look around the library. There weren't many students present here. The ones who were present were sitting in the first row while I was sitting in the corner seat on the last row.

"Can we talk?" He asks.

As I meet his gaze, I find them pleading.

"Please Vini." He requests.

"No!" I say sternly and rise from my chair.

These two months I've been ignoring Rohan. I can't forget what all things he said to Aryan on his birthday and how he fought with him at the pub.

Since then I had decided that I will never come across Rohan or his friends. Sometimes he did try to approach me but everytime I made some excuse and ran away from him.

"Vini, please, just listen to me." He says in a state of urgency and blocks my way.

"I have to go." I say and lower my gaze.