Confession

Chapter 36

Confession
ARYAN

Fuck! I just said that. I can't believe I fucking said that!

I want to run into the bushes and hide there. Or should I just disappear from this planet, that's a better idea.

She is taken aback and blinks her eyes, trying to conceive what I just said.

I rub her hand with my thumb and repeat myself again. "I like you, Vini. I mean.... yeah I like you as a..... friend. But.... also as a.... you know..." I lift my shoulder.

She constantly blinks her eyes as she stares at me.

"I have romantic feelings for you." I let out an awkward small laugh. "You know.... my heart can no longer keep my feelings to itself. I need to let it out. I need to confess, Vini. Please just, just give me few minutes. I wanna say it. I want to confess everything to you. I want you to know, what I feel for you, how I feel for you."

"You must be thinking when did it started, how did it started. But I swear Vini, it has been there since the beginning, it was there from the starting. From the very first moment I laid my eyes on you. My feelings were there all the time." I say in one breath.

I continue when she doesn't respond. "It was three years back. First day of school. I was new student in 9th class. I was standing outside the office staircase. My parents were in the office, fulfilling some paper work or something. I was just standing there looking around the school. Prayer & assembly was yet to be done, so all the students were roaming here & there in the ground."

I inhale & exhale deep breaths, then continue. "Then suddenly, someone ran into me. It was a girl. Dressed in school uniform, hair tied in two cute pigtails reaching her upper arm, pink bagpack hanging over her shoulders. After colliding with me she turns around and.... that's it, time stopped then & there for me. First thing I noticed, her eyes glistening with joy & happiness. Next thing I noticed her beautiful smile on her face along with her dimples."

I smile warmly remembering the moment when I saw her for the first time. "She was in a hurry. So, she just mumbled sorry two times and then ran towards her friend. I watched her from afar. As she reached her friend, she hugged her tightly. Her friend whispered something in her ear and then pointed at a group of boys. She moved her gaze to look at the group and then she blushed and started giggling with her friend."

I look up to see Vini's expression. She was innocently looking at me, waiting for me to continue. "That girl was you. Your friend, Meera, she was actually pointing at Rohan. He & his friends were standing quite afar from you both. You were watching him and I was watching you."

"I don't know how to define that moment. Attraction, infatuation or love at first sight. But I felt something in that moment. Looking at you. Seeing you smiling and blushing, my heart.... it just started fluttering."

"I wanted to see you for few more minutes, but then you both left. My parents also came out at the same moment. Then.... after assembly, I started searching my classroom. I found it and when I entered I saw you there. Sitting in the first corner bench with Meera. My legs automatically made their way towards you and I sat behind you, in second bench."

I chuckle. "I didn't even knew your name but still my heart.... it started liking you. I got to know your name after teacher took attendance." I nod my head. "I tried talking to you but.... instead Meera used to respond and you.... just used to give me few glances just for few milliseconds."

"Then I became friends with Zain and started sitting in the last bench. I instantly became popular in school. Maybe.... because of my looks and charm." I chuckle. "I was quite flirtatious with all the girls. They use to surround me whenever I was alone, including Meera. But my eyes.... they always found their way back to you, sitting in the corner bench with a novel in your lap. You were the only one, who was not into me."