I'ma give you the world. -KhaoFirst

the past.

"Look at them. They are beautiful." Praew said to her husband as they held their twins in their arms. "They are gorgeous.. Our boys.."

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"Kumphakan Puitrakul ?" "Here." ... "Kanaphan Puitrakul ?" "Here.." First said in a tiny voice, making some of his classmates laugh at him. "Ignore them First. You don't need those idiots." The ten year old boy said. It was their first day in a new class and First was really shy. The twins sat next to each other.. until the teacher decided to seperate them.

A few days passed by and suddenly, the other kids in class were mean to First. They made fun of him for being shy, laughed whenever he had to read in front of the class...

And one day, two of those kids went home with a bloody nose..

That day Fiat swore to himself, that he will protect his little brother, come what may.

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"..and if you hurt my brother again, I'll make sure you eat your food out of a sippy cup in the future, you piece of shit." "Fiat, it's fine. Let's go." said First and grabbed his brothers arm. "Shit, man..." said the older one and kicked the boy, who was already lying on the ground, in the stomach again before finally going back into the school building with First. "Come on, we'll take care of your hand." said First, but Fiat initially refused. It took a lot of persuasion from the fifteen-year-old until his brother finally agreed. "What did you argue about this time?" Fiat asked his little brother. First pushed Fiat down onto a chair, took a cloth and some tincture and began to dab Fiats bleeding hand with it. "We didn't argue." "Oh please, we both know that I didn't almost knock Chris's teeth out for nothing." First sighed. "He talked badly about my baby..." he said quietly. "What?" "He said Areums and my child... was a freak and that we didn't deserve to have children." Fiat felt his anger boiling up again. He would have loved to run back and actually knock the guys teeth out.
"That's why I hit him. I didn't think about it, it all happened so quickly. After all the stress of the past few days... I really thought Areum had aborted our child and those words somehow hit the nail on the head... I should have known that he would let his friends beat me up... I just didn't have the strength to defend myself against five of them when my anger subsided. You know the rest." "Yes I do know the rest, because I beat up those five guys plus Chris together. Shit First, I understand you. I understand you completely. Nobody talks like that about my unborn nephew or niece. But boy, we're at school. I know that I have to go to the principal again today and even though I hate it, you know that Mae and Por will give me a lot less freedom than I already do have..." "I am sorry Fiat." Fiat patted his brother on the shoulder and shook his head. "It's okay, First, you know I'll always be there for you." "I love you, Fiat." "I love you too, First."

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"Fiat !" First shouted as he ran into the waiting area. He was so excited that he didn't even notice the other people there. Fiat stood up and looked at his brother. "He's here." said First and fell into his brothers arms. "My son is here." he said and could hardly hold back the tears of joy. "Min-Joo Singto Puitrakul." Fiat smiled at his brother with tears in his eyes.
"Come, come with me." First said and pulled his brother towards the elevator.

Level 4, to the left and down the hall. They were standing in front of a room with a large pane of glass. Fiat stopped in front of it and First went in. With a broad smile First went to one of the three little beds there. He lifted the baby out and took him in his arms. This little human. That was Firsts son. That was his own flesh and blood. The fifteen-year-old beamed at his brother and First smiled back.
With the baby in his arms, he walked up to the pane and proudly showed his big brother his son. Fiat looked at the little boy and in this moment he swore to himself to do everything for his nephew. Even though he wasn't allowed in to hold the little boy yet, this moment was magical.

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"What the fuck is wrong with you ?" Fiat yelled. "I.. I am sorry Fiat. I didn't mean to steal your food." First apologized. The younger one looked like he was about to cry. He sat on the couch, holding a Yoghurt cup, which apparently belonged to his brother. First didn't know what was wrong with his brother. For days, the sixteen-year-old had been behaving uncharacteristically. He sometimes ignored First, shouted at him for little things - like now. First felt lost. "You idiot !" "Stop yelling at me Fiat." First said at the verge of tears. "Oh cut that bullshit you fag." Fiat said and stopped as if he just realized what the fuck he just said. "I'm so-" he stopped himself and just looked at his brother. First stood up from the couch and sighed. "You know ?" "Know what ?" "That I am gay." Fiat didn't answer. He just looked to the side. "That's why you hate me ? Because I'm gay ?" First asked but didn't even wait for an answer. He just left the livingroom. Fiat wanted to go after him. Hug him, tell him he's sorry and that it's Areums fault.. but he couldn't. He didn't want to be the one to destroy his brothers little family. It was Areums job to tell him, apologize and work things out..

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"Are you kidding me Areum ?" "Fiat, it's not what it looks like." "You're cheating on my brother again !" "No, I-" "Cut the bullshit girl. Gosh, I hate you so fucking much Areum. You're hurting my little brother." "And what about me ? I know that your brother is gay, why do I have to live like a monk? I want to have sex, live my life, have dudes look at me like they want to-" "I don't need that information. Do whatever the fuck you want, but think about your damn family and at least end things with my brother. Stop bullshitting him." Fiat said angry and turned around to leave but Areum stopped him. "I'm currently seeing some guy from korea. I don't know if it's because he can speak korean but I feel.. Safe with him. Like I am home. I don't know, I do like First and I want to end things with Chanyeol but.." "But what ?" "I am pregnant." "What ?" "I am pregnant and it's not Firsts child this time." Fiat sighed and bit his lower lip. "Why are you doing this Areum ?" "Don't you understand ? I love my little girl. This time, I really do feel love for this child. I haven't felt anything a mother should feel when I was pregnant with Min-Joo. I didn't even felt any real love after I gave birth to him. I looked at him and felt like they just gave me some child I don't even know." "How could you say something like that about your own son ?! Aren't you ashamed ?!" "No, I am not and you won't make me feel any shame. It's not my fault. And besides that - I only kept him for First. You know it doesn't seem like it but I liked First for real. It just wasn't real love I just.. liked the idea of having a boyfriend. A little toy for when I want to forget all the shit that's been going on, but I am an adult now.." "An adult ? You can barely take care of yourself.." "I just needed some distraction tonight. Not everything in my life is good !" "Like growing up with a gold spoon your ass ? Oh yeah, I feel so sorry for you, oh my gosh.." "You know what I mean.." "No, I don't fucking know what you mean Areum and for fucks sake - tell my brother so he can finally let you go and be happy or I will !" "No ! I will tell him, I promise." "I swear, if you're lying again-" "I am not. Also, you can't tell him. You know he would hate you for knowing and not telling him.." "You said you'd tell him. That's why I didn't." "Still, he'd hate you."

And that was the moment when Fiats fear was so much greater than his ability to think rationally..

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Hey guys !

Oh you can't imagine how much I hate Areum !! Jeez..

But hey, at least you have a little more knowledge about the twins now !

Hope to see you guys in the next chapter ^^

-Jessy