I'ma give you the world. -KhaoFirst

New old friends

Khaotung was on his lunchbreak, trying to find a table to sit at. First wasn't in university today since he had to go to Mins check up, so it was only Khao..
He was deep in thoughts when suddenly -

"Khaotung ?" "Satang ?" "Khao ! My friend, it's been so long !" "What are you doing here ?" Khaotung asked his friend and hugged him as tightly as he could with his lunchin his hands. "I moved so I'm now at this university." The young boy couldn't even say how happy he was. He stared at Satang and smiled widely. "Sit down, eat with me ! Come on." The friend did exactly that, sat down also smiling and just stared at his friend. "Wow, I wouldn't have thought that we'd bump into each other here. Like - what are the odds ?" "I know right ? I knew that you're in Bangkok, but I didn't knew that you're going to this university." Satang said. "You know what Satang, we should catch up. Let's go to a bar tonight !" The friend bit his lip and smiled innocently. "Actually.. I quit drinking." He said carefully as if he was afraid to say something wrong. "Well that's really cool, I am happy for you ! Then.. let's go to a Cafe after classes !" Satang nodded. Khaotung felt that familiar warmth in his heart. Satang was his first friend back then but Satangs parents split up and he moved away with his mother. Khaotung and Satang stayed in touch but.. one day.. it suddenly wasn't possible anymore. Khaotung knew that it was his fault and he was really embarrassed about that. He always imagined seeing his friend again but he always thought that Satang would be mad at him. He'd never expected him to act like nothing happened but he did.. and that's one thing Khaotung loved about his friend. He could always count on him, no matter what.

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"How's your mom doing ?" "Oh she's fine. She has a boyfriend now. His name is Ethan and he's actually pretty nice. My dad married his girlfriend Ploy last year and I.. have a half sister now." Satang sighed. "Guess I won't be a part of her life since my dad moved to the UK and I  barely get a text or call back from him." "I am really sorry to hear that. I always thought you and your dad had a good relationship." "Yeah I thought so too. My dad was my hero. If it wasn't for his job, I would have lived two weeks at my moms and two weeks at his. It was hard to decide after their break up but I had no other choice than to stay with mom and see him like two times a month." "But why did He suddenly move to the UK ? He turned down the job offer in Italy when your parents were still together. I still remember that." "Yes. Well I guess his wife didn't wanted to stay here anymore and my dad does everything she wants. He has his own happy little family now. He has a lot of time for my sister, they have a big home and go on vacations regularly. They have a good life. But so do I, because I have an incredible mom. I don't need to go to switzerland to have fun and I don't need to see hawaii to get tanned." The friends laughed loudly, given the fact that Satangs  skin was very sensitive and he was probably whiter than toast. He didn't tan, he got sunburnt. That was the case even back then in their school years, and Khaotung knew that hadn't changed when he saw Satang earlier, almost bathing in sunscreen before the two of them left the university.

"How come you don't drink anymore ? I mean - that's cool ! I'm just curious. No one could beat you when it came to drinking alcohol and we were always impressed by the fact that you could drink without getting a hang over." Khaotungs friend put his cup down and smiled. "I have a boyfriend." Satang said happy, waiting for Khaotungs reaction. "You have a boyfriend ?" "Yes." "Congratulations ! I am so happy for you nong !" "Thank you. Since I met him, I don't feel like I have to act strong. I don't feel lonely anymore and I absolutely don't feel like I need to drink anymore. His name is Winny. We're together for almost two years now." "Two years. Wow ! That's a long time." "It is, but I surely hope that it will be forever. I never felt something like that for anyone." "How did you two got to know each other ?" "It's a crazy story. I wanted to go home from school one evening but my motorbike gave up. He was on his way to his car and offered to help me. I had never seen him before, the school was relatively big, bigger than ours back then Khao. He was kind enough to drive me home. Two days later his car gave up in front of the supermarket, and luckily I had just come back from shopping with my mother's car. I took him to a garage and we went out to eat together while his car got checked. I thought he was pretty cute, but I didn't dare ask him for his number and he didn't dare either because - in his words - "he was afraid of me thinking of him as a weirdo." Two days later we ran into each other at school. More or less. I ran into him and knocked his lunch out of his hands. I got him something new and from then on we ate together regularly. After another two days, he finally dared to ask me for my number and finally invited me on a date." "That's such a cute story. And you're right - it is crazy. WinnySatang. Sounds good." "How do you know it's WinnySatang and not SatangWinny ?" Khaotung raised an eyebrow and smirked. "Okay nevermind that." Satang laughed and put his hand up. "No for real Satang. I am really really happy for you. And I am proud of you for getting over your little alcoholproblem."

Khaotung was the only one who knew about Satangs worries and feelings. He knew that the other drank to forget his problems. He knew that his friend barely slept at night. Satang would come to school, get home and sleep the whole day, wake up when his mom got home at night, and just stayed up until he had to go to school again. Khaotung knew about Satangs bad thoughts and wishes. And he knew about the fact that Satang is gay.

Satang was also the only one that knew the whole truth about Khaotung and his past. He knew that Khaotung is bisexual. He was the only one that knew about Khaotungs struggles and feelings and he was the only one that knew about the other not longer wanting to be here anymore.

And Satang certainly was the only one keeping Khaotung alive and vice versa.

The friends were inseperable and when Khaotung suddenly stopped texting him.. and when Khaotung suddenly changed his number.. and when Khaotung suddenly moved and Satangs letters would all come back unopened.. He knew that there was a reason. He wasn't mad at his friend. Just a tad bit worried. But he could never be mad at his best friend. He just told himself that they would meet again somewhere when life would want that to happen. Satang lived his life and when he saw Khaotung in this school, he felt overjoyed. That was his best friend ! Khao, his best friend, his buddy, his Khao. He saw the fear in the others eyes disappear and felt the familiar warmth in his heart.

"So tell me about your life. What happened these last few years ?" Satang took a big sip from his cup of coffee and looked at his friend. "Well nothing much actually. I just moved into a new, bigger condo, worked a few months and now I go to university." "And.. is there a special one in your life ?" Khaotung smiled but tried to hide it. "Okay that is my answer right there !" Satang giggled. "We're not a couple.. but I like him." "So it's a guy. What's his name ? How did you met ?" "His name is First and we have a few classes together." "So he's in our university?" "He is." Khaotung played with the hem of his shirt and Satang saw how nervous the other suddenly was. "I am happy for you Khao and I really hope that you two will end up together. You deserve it." "I am afraid Satang." His friend nodded. "I mean.. He knows a bit about my family, but he doesn't know everything. I am afraid that he'll leave." "If he's the right person, he won't. Besides that - Khaotung how many times should I tell you - it's not your damn fault. None of it. You never asked to be born. You were loved and that's all that matters. People just love to talk." "Yes and that's the problem.. what if the stuff that people tell will end our relationship if it will ever come to be one ?" Satang raised his eyebrow. "Khaotung, if he's the right one, he would never believe something stupid. Besides that - we're not in our hometown anymore. Nobody here in Bangkok knows you from back there, besides me. Also - don't overthink everything like that."

It got quiet between the friends. Satang understood Khao's fear but he tried his best to make his friend realize that his fear is irrational. If First is the right one, he would never leave Khaotung for something, he didn't even had control of.

"Hey Khao, what about your uncle Sun ?" Khaotung tensed up. He clenched his hand into a fist and clenched his teeth tightly. "I haven't heard from him in a while. He's probably still in prison." "I see." His friend nodded slightly. But Khaotung couldn't shake the feeling that the other man had questions. Questions that Khao probably didn't want to hear, but he couldn't blame Satang. "To be honest, I simply don't want to hear from him. It's not like we're blood related or that I owe him anything. Everything he did was purely out of a bad conscience, not because he had any kind of love for me." "I know. I'm just worried about you, I am sorry for being nosy."

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Hey hey :)

Another chapter and another character:)

Has anybody watched "We are - the series." ? QToey is one if my fave ships and so is WinnySatang so you know - I had to include them :)

Hope  y'all liked this chapter.

See you in the next one.

-Jessy