"Fiat dear, could you help me real quick ?" His grandma asked. Fiat stood up with Min-Joo on his arm and with a smile, he walked over to his grandma. "My love, would you accompany me to the market ?" "Of course grandma." He said and helped her get up from the chair. "You wanna come with us Singto ?" Fiat asked in a babyvoice which made his nephew laugh really hard. With Min-Joo on his arm and his grandmas hand in his hand, Fiat walked to the frontdoor. They said their goodbyes to his parents, he helped her put her shoes on and finally, they left his grandmas house. They walked in silence for a minute until his grandma spoke up. "Dear did you plan to talk to First already ?" "Grandma, it's not that easy." "Oh it is Fiat. Your brother won't hate you." "He already does." "He doesn't hate you Fiat. You just made him think that you hate him. I just want my two grandbabies to finally talk again. You miss your brother as well, I know that !" "Grandma, of course I miss him, but he won't forgive me if he knows. This way, I at least can see Min-Joo." "But Min-Joo is not your brother Fiat. He won't make the hole in your heart disappear just because he is your brothers kid. You miss your brother !" Fiat sighed. "Por loves uncle Fiat very much." Min-Joo said and stretched out his arms to show how much his father loves his brother. "You see. Even Min-Joo knows that, darling." "Grandma, please, I betrayed him. I can't tell him that I knew that..." "Fiat." his grandmother stopped and looked him deep in the eyes. "My boy, you can't imagine how much I wish to see my brother again. You are young, you have your whole life ahead of you. I beg you, Fiat, don't make the same mistake of not letting your brother get close to you anymore, just because you are afraid of the truth." Fiat wanted to argue against that, but couldn't. He knew she was right, so he just nodded.
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"Mae, we're back !" "Por !" Min-Joo yelled and ran to his father, who looked at Fiat angrily. "Who the fu-.. Who allowed you to take my kid with you ?" "First calm down, I asked him to come with us." "Grandma.." Their grandma tapped him on the shoulder and smiled. "Don't be angry at your brother." Fiat sighed and so did First. "Come on, Fiat." He thought for a moment, but before he could say something nice, he was overcome by anger. Anger about this whole shitty situation. "Don't annoy me." "Don't annoy me ? Are you for real ?" "First..." said Khao and grabbed the other's hand. First turned around and handed Min-Joo to Khaotung. "Let's talk." said First and Fiat frowned. "Fuck you, I'm not doing shit." "Fiat!" said his grandma. He looked back and she raised her eyebrows. "Fine..." he said and followed his brother into the garden. He closed the door and suddenly there they were, the two little brothers who used to love each other so much. The two brothers who did everything for each other. "Are you completely crazy?" asked First angrily. "What do you want from me Kanaphan?" First scoffed. "Fuck you Kumphakan, what's your fucking problem? What did I do to make you hate me so much ?!" "Dude, don't you understand that I just don't want to be near you? You disgust me." "You can shove your homophobic shit up your ass. Becoming a dickless idiot overnight is honestly pathetic." "Dickless idiot ? It's funny that you out of all people say something like that." "Fiat, I really don't want to hear your shit anymore. Tell me the truth." "What truth? Do you want me to tell you something that is simply not true, just so you can clear up your stupid feelings?"
"You're a stupid asshole. I know that you're hiding something from me and there's a reason why you're suddenly like this." "Don't think you know anything about me." "Shit, man, you're my twin Fiat whether you want it or not, I know that you're not what you pretend to be!" "You don't know anything!" "Then tell me!" "I can't!" Fiat shouted at his brother, an evil look in his eyes and First fell silent. He knew that something was wrong with his brother and the way the other man reacted proved enough to him. "Fiat, I don't know how much longer you want to play this game, but I for one am fed up."
Fiat swallowed and then First said the worst words he could have said. "Stay away from me and my son." And with that statement, First disappeared inside. Fiat couldn't even argue, he was pissed but he brought this upon himself. He watched as First walked upstairs with Min-Joo and accidentally made eyecontact with Khao who sighed. He just turned around and sat down on the porch. >Shit Fiat, it would have been better if you hadn't come here in the first place..< "Fiat?" the person addressed turned around. "What do you want? Won't your hubby be mad if he sees you talking to me?" "First is upstairs bathing Min-Joo." ... "Fiat, I don't think you're as bad as you pretend to be." "What do you know? Shit, you don't even know me. You're intruding into our family and acting like you know something, when you're not even one of us." >Shut up Fiat...< he thought and regretted what he had just said to Khao. The younger man sat down next to him and sighed. "You know Fiat, without wanting to sound mean, but I don't care if I'm part of the family in your eyes. The only opinions that matter to me are First and Min-Joo's." Fiat sighed. "I don't even blame you for saying that. I think it's just your way of protecting your heart from whatever. I just want to tell you that whatever it is that's keeping you away from First, it's certainly nothing so bad that it can't be resolved. First is very understanding and has a good heart and I think you do too." "Khao, you know nothing. Please stop before I say mean things again." "I'm used to hearing mean things. I don't mind. I know you don't mean them." ... "Fiat I don't know what you're thinking about First. You made it pretty clear what you think about me but for me, you are a part of this family. And if you don't feel like you belong to this family - for me you belong to our little family. To First, Singto and me. And I hope at some point you two will talk things out so that I can get to know my brother-in-law better in the future."
With these words, Khaotung stood up and went back inside. Fiat heard the sliding door close behind him and suddenly he couldn't keep up the fake expression any longer.
He buried his head in his lap and cried, just like the sky did.
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Almost an hour passed before Fiat went back in. He closed the door quietly and went over to the kitchen to get something to drink and of course he ran straight into his brother's arms. First sat at the table and stared stubbornly at Fiat. Fiat couldn't hide the fact that he had been crying, no matter how much he wanted to. After stopping for a moment, he finally walked to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of beer. He opened it, threw away the bottle cap and was about to leave when First suddenly spoke up. "Did you cry ?" He asked coldly but Fiat didn't answer. "You've lost your lip piercing. Singto found it in his bed." Fiat once again didn't answer. He just stood there, his back facing First. First sighed and Fiat let his head hang low. "I'm sorry for not asking if I could take Singto with us." He suddenly said. First raised his eyebrow. He certainly didn't expect Fiat to apologize. "Thanks I appreciate that." He said and stood up. He walked out of the kitchen but came back and looked into Fiats eyes. "You don't have to stay away from Singto." First said and left for good. Fiat stood there, his beer in his hands, once again about to cry. Fiat deeply misses his brother, but there's no way First would forgive him his secret..
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Hello hello :)
Another chapter is here. I really hope you are all curious about the secret 👀
See you in the next chapter ^^
-Jessy
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Fanfiction🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙 >>When will it get better ?<< he thought and lit up another cigarette. "It won't get better.." He told himself. 🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙 Khaotung, a bubbly, friendly young boy, who's been through a lot. He makes sure to...
