Clouded Hearts

34: Forward

Astraea

"Are you okay?" Gael asked me, guiding me to sit beside him.

"Yeah, I'm just tired." I said massaging my head.

"Too much stress?" I nod

I still haven't moved on. Why did my friends say those things? Making stories that have no evidence.

"Gael?" Maybe he can help me answer these questions in my mind.

"Hmm?" He smiled at me.

"You're my friend, right?" Kumunot ang noo niya. "Boyfriend na kaya." I smiled

"We've been friends since elementary? Tropa tayo nila Eryx diba?" Tumango ulit siya.

"What happened five years ago?" Sumeryoso ang mukha nito saka naglihis ng tingin.

"Five years ago?" Tumango ako

"I don't know. My father got elected." He said before turning his back.

"No, I mean, if you are my friend. You know what happened five years ago. Did I get into a car accident?" Nanahimik nanaman siya.

"Why are you asking these kind of questions?" He asked.

"Ice and Eryx said so... but I couldn't remember anything. They said, I have amnesia causing me to not remember anything." He looked at me again.

"If you have, why did you remember me? Or our childhood?" Bumuntong hininga ako saka ngumiti.

"Bakit galit?" I hugged him from behind. I didn't mean to offend him.

"They don't make sense, maybe that's all a lie. They want to separate us. They didn't like me, right?"

"Eryx and Ice wouldn't lie to me. They can't and I know na hindi sila magsisinungaling para lang mailayo tayo sa isa't isa. If they want us to separate, ginawa na nila ng pwersahan." I defended my friends. Kahit pa ayaw nila kay Gael, I know hindi sila gagawa ng ganoong bagay.

"You still don't know, hon. Iba ang nagagawa ng desperate." Tinaggal ko ang pagkakayakap ko sa kanya.

"Kaibigan ko sila. Stop badmouthing them in front of me. You were once friends with them too, how could you talk like that?" I said. Hindi porket boyfriend ko siya ay siya palagi ang tama.

"I'm sorry. I just want it to be clear. Nothing happened five years ago." He kissed my temple before hugging me.

Naiinis pa rin ako. Nagtatanong lang naman ako, involve ba siya kaya siya defensive? Sino na ang papaniwalaan ko?

I took a deep breath before removing Gael's arms around me. He looked at me puzzled.

"Are you mad?" He asked

"I don't like your reaction, Gael. Do you know something or, are you involve?" Kumunot ang noo niya.

"Involve saan?" I averted my gaze. Kaya ba ayaw nila Ice sa'yo kasi may naganap nga five years ago at isa ka sa mga nagpahamak sa akin? Kaya ba sobrang protective nila sa'kin pagdating sa'yo?

"Five years ago..." Hindi siya umimik kaya napatingin ako sa kanya. Napalunok ako ng sakit ang nasa mata niya. Bakit Gael? Ano bang nangyari limang taon na ang nakakalipas?

"You're accusing me." He said. I bit my lower lip when he looked away.

"No, I just want the truth. My friends already explain everything. I want you to explain your point of view too. I want to know other's perspective" I held his hand, gently caressing it.

"Don't take my questions against you. Gusto kong malinawan dahil sa utak ko, wala. Walang nangyari five years ago. Walang aksidente at lalong wala akong kilala na naging kaibigan ko, kundi kayo lang." He looked at me again, nodding.