Astraea
Pagbukas ko ng box ay hinalungkat ko na lahat. Lahat ng anggulo ay ako ang modelo. May parang nakatago ang kumukuha ng litrato, may harapan naman, may nakalikod ako, may parang nasa mataas na lugar ang kumuha. Meron ding nakangiti at nakatingin ako sa camera. Most of them were my pictures.
Nakakuha ng atensyon ko ang litrato kung saan nakatikod ako at nasa harap ko si Gael. May hawak itong bulaklak. Agad ko itong binaba. Ayoko naman punitin dahil hindi ito sa akin.
Nang makarating sa dulo ay may mga nakasobre. Nang buksan ko ang isa ay tumambad sa akin ang isang poem.
The girl I love secretly
With every moment that the days pass by,
My heart keeps hoping, though it heaves a sigh.
Behind my smile lies a hidden flame,
For the girl I adore, but cannot name.
Her eyes, like stars in the evening sky,
A light that keeps my soul alive.
Yet I cannot reveal this love I keep,
Afraid she’d turn away, or tears she’d weep.
Whenever she's near, the world stands still,
Her every word a melody that fills.
But I remain a shadow of this desire,
Silent and bound by fear's cruel fire.
The girl I love will never know,
The secret feelings I cannot show.
But maybe someday, I’ll find the way,
To tell her my heart, come what may.
Nang buksan ko pa ang isa ay ganon din. Napakunot ang noo ko dahil sa title. Bakit ganto siya gumawa ng title?
Ano ito?
Sa ilalim ng langit na puno ng tala,
May simoy ng hangin na tila may kwenta.
Di ko mawari, anong nangyayari,
Ang puso ko’y gumigising sa bago’t sari.
Sa isang tingin, para bang may hiwaga,
Ang mga mata mo’y tila nagsasalita.
May init na hatid sa lamig ng gabi,
Ang damdamin ko’y unti-unting sumisidhi.
Sa bawat salita, may kurot na kakaiba,
Sa bawat ngiti mo, puso’y nahahalina.
Di ko inasahan, di ko rin naisip,
Na may umuusbong na damdaming matipid.
Ito ba’y simula ng isang pag-ibig?
O kaya nama’y panaginip na matamis?
Anuman ang sagot, hahayaan ko muna,
Ang damdaming ito’y lumago nang kusa.
Nang buksan ko pa ang isa ay ganon din. Puro hand written poems. Para sa akin ba ito? Bakit hindi niya binigay?
Whatever it is
Why is it that every time you talk to another,
My heart burns like a fire, harder and harder?
Each smile you give to someone else I see,
Fills my soul with envy and silent misery.
I cannot explain, nor can I deny,
Why this jealousy consumes me, though I try.
Every moment you are far away,
Feels like a distance I cannot convey.
This jealousy, a quiet, consuming flame,
I try to fight it, but it burns all the same.
But who am I to feel this ache?
When your affection is not mine to take.
Why does my heart feel a sudden sting,
Each time you’re near, yet not noticing.
Your smile for others, warm and true,
Leaves me wondering, “Am I invisible to you?”
I smiled. Ano kayang nangyari rito? Bakit kasi wala akong maalala? Hays. Buksan ko na lang lahat. Wala naman siyang balak ibigay sa akin.
The love that waits.
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