𝐑𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝

Sound check

As we arrived there the boys went first on stage to make their sound check.
I'm going for a walk with Dj and Big Naz around here.

"You aight gabs?" Big Naz asked
"I am, and you? I'm sorry i didn't talked that much with you." I said
"Don't worry about it. I'm kinda excited to start the entire show. This is going to be crazy." Big Naz said
"Yeah I'm also exited. I can't believe it that tomorrow is the day." I said

"So everything is aight between Marshall and you?"
"Your a man. If you like a woman would you still sleep with others girls?" I asked him
"It depends. If I'm in love with that woman then no. My eyes and everything i have belongs to her no matter how many woman's will want me i won't even look at them because i have this girl that I'm in love with her and she also loves me to. But if I'm only sexually attracted to her and nothing more then that then that means I can be sexually attracted to any other woman's." He said

"Hm.. aight. Thank you for your opinion."
"What's wrong?"

"He makes me think he likes me. He even shows me that when it's only the two of us. But then he slept with this girl in the bus and then in the club he was kissing with this other girl. Then he gets jealous because he thinks there is something between me and Proof."

"I think you two should sit down and talk about what you both want. And I think he also doesn't know what he really wants. He's a cool guy but I can tell he seems confused. Talk to him normally. Without fighting, and see where all this will bring you."

"I don't want to get involved with him and then he leaves me. Or worser cheats on me and shit. I want something serious, and if he doesn't want that then I don't want him. There is something between us two I can feel it. But only god knows what he actually wants." I said

"We all can see there is something between you two. Even when he looks at you his entire face changes. And the body language between you two is different." Big Naz said

"Agh I hate men's." I said "NOT YOU!" I pointed the finger at Big Naz.
"I can see that." He laughs

We walked back and I brought Dj in a room i gave him food and water. I left the tv on because he loves to watch tv and I left the room.
The boys should be over now.

As i got on stage Marshall and the others were still practicing.
I sat down on the chair and watched them.
I watch Marshall being very concentrated on what he's doing.
Proof looked at me for a sec and then he went back to his stuff.

Damn I'm so nervous about tomorrow.
What if nothing turns out good?
What if people won't like me on stage with Eminem.
And what if I will forgive my own songs?
It actually happens lately, and I don't really know what's the cause behind that but I guess I'm stressing myself way to much before I go on stage.

"Gabi!" Swift called my name
"Huh?" I snapped out of my thoughts
"You're on." He said
"Aight." I went on stage

The Dj started the first song I'll perform.
Normally sound check is also to warm out your voice and to sing those songs to see if everything is the way it should be.
But I've actually haven't done this since a long time.
I'm only playing the songs I have to perform i listen to it. If there is something i don't like i change the song and put a other one in the old ones place.
And when everything sounds perfect to me I'm done.

Robert thinks I'm crazy because I don't warm up my voice even a day before the show but I just can't do it.
I drink a lot of water and then I sing.
I tried to warm up my voice even my body but it never worked out because that's how I stress myself much more out. Especially before the show.

So I better stay all quite the day before the show and try not to yell or stuff like that and my voice is all good.
I'm not even smoking before the show.

"Aight can you change hurt with crazy in love?" I asked the Dj
He did what I said and we listened to the song again to see how it sounds.
"Everything sounds good to me." I said
"You sure you don't wanna warm up your voice?" Paul asked
"I'm good thank you." I said

"Aight then, tomorrow is the big show. Before the show we'll come here again and do a other sound check to make sure everything is fine. Until then y'all are free. Get in bed early because tomorrow we got work to do." Paul said

"You were good." Marshall grabbed my waist closer to him
"Marsh-"
"Let's go eat something. Just you and I." He looked in my eyes
Should I really go with him?
Agh fuck it. I only live once.
"Okay then." I smiled at him

"Big can you take Dj with you back to the hotel. I'm going to eat something with Marshall."
"I take the dog he comes with you. You can't be alone out there." Paul said
"But I'm alright."
"He's right, I'm your bodyguard. I'll be behind you by every step." Big Naz said
"Aight then," I said and got in the car with Big Naz and Marshall

"Do they have Taco Bell here?" Marshall asked
"Fuck no Marshall. I have enough of tacos. I can't see that shit anymore." I said
Marshall laughed at me
"Don't laugh, i fucking mean it. We can eat whatever you want but not tacos." I said
"Aight baby." He said

The fuck?
Agh please don't do this to me Marshall.