𝐑𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝

Leaving

Marshall's Pov:
Fuck this shit I have enough.
I can't even fall in love with a woman or to treat her the way she deserves because all I'm thinking that every bitch will do the same shit Kim did to me.
I didn't want to leave, now I don't even wanna know what she's thinking.
I'm being a asshole to the only woman that took my side on tv while the entire world is against me and my music.

Kim will never do that, but Gabbriette did. And she doesn't even know me.
She doesn't deserve it to be treated like this man. Why the fuck am I being so afraid about this shit.

I walked back in the bus.
I'm so fucking angry at myself.

"Yo why you mad?" Proof asked
"Forget about it." I said walking past him
"What happened dawg? Tell me man maybe I can help." Proof said

"I fucking walked away man. Again. She's fucking perfect. She fucking took my side on tv. The entire world had seen and heard what she said about me. From all the woman's I've meet she is the only one that understands me man. And I fucking walked away because back in my mind all the woman's are the same. She'll probably do the same shit as Kim did to me." I said

"Ay man, you know deep down that Gabbriette is not like that. I know we just meet her but you can see from the way she is with us that she's totally normal. She doesn't have nothing to hide. She's being herself. If she would be like Kim or other bitches I would even tell you." Proof said

"I fucking walked away after she kissed my cheek and told me that she feels comfortable around me. Now what the fuck is she thinking?" I said

"Go back to her bus man. Tell her how you feel." Proof said
"I can't fucking tell her that. I just meet her. How stupid will I sound telling her that I like her." I said
"You just meet her but you've listened to her songs every fucking day. You read articles and watched her pictures more then you watch porns dawg. Remember when you told us if you'll get the chance to meet her you'll do everything what will take to get to know her?" Proof asked

"I.. yeah I know." I said
"Then here is your chance man. You only need to walk 5 minutes to her bus and be honest with her." Proof said
"She will think I'm crazy. I can't fucking do that. I'm Eminem not a asshole that falls in love with a random girl." I said
"Then "Eminem" wait until she won't even look in your way. You dumb mother fucker. You know you playing to much right now. But do whatever you want man. Big Em." Proof Said and walked out of the bus

Man I can't just fucking go to her and tell her all this things.
Yes I listen to her songs. She haves a beautiful voice. And I love her songs. I've got her albums and shit even Hailie listens to it.
I read articles about her because that was the only way to inform myself a little.
And yes.. i also watched her pictures but that's because every photoshoot she's doing she looks so fucking hot.
She's my type, the way I want a woman to look like and to act like is just the way she is.

Damn.. what the fuck am I doing now?

Gabbriettes Pov:
"We can't leave now Gabbriette. We need to wait for Paul and the others." Robert said
"Why the fuck do we need to wait for them if we're going to go on tour with them In a month anyway."
"Paul wants a other meeting."
"Well tell Paul we'll talk next week or before the tour starts. I want to go home now." I said

"What happened between you and Marshall last night? Why you acting like this?"
"Nothing happened Robert. I just wanna go home." I said
"Something and someone did something to you. Matter of fact someone made you feel sad. I can see that in your eyes. What is it?"
"Nothing.." I said walking to my room
"If you'll tell me I could help you Gab. Just for once open yourself to me." Robert said

"I can't fucking open myself to anyone at this point. I just CANT. Just leave it alone. And let's go home. Or I'll call a taxi and don't even fuck with me because like this I won't even go on that stupid tour." I said walking away from Robert.

Fuck him and this tour and Marshall.
I hate when people use me to get something they want.
I hate when people are acting all confused.
I HATE IT when people makes me questioning myself if I've done something wrong.
Because I know I didn't do anything wrong.
And all that fucks with my head right now is why the fuck he left like that.

My entire life people will use me to get whatever they want.
And now when I being for once nice and myself to someone he's leaving.

It makes me feel so trashy. It makes me feel bad that I let myself being so comfortable around him.
And for fucking kissing his cheek.

Agh I just wanna go home and forget about this things.
I've just meet him man why the fuck am I acting like I'm in a relationship with him.
Jesus Christ.

Marshall's Pov:
"Marshall!" Paul called my name
"What?"
"What did you do to Gabbriette? Why the fuck you always gotta act like a stupid fuck whenever a NORMAL girl is being nice to you?" Paul raised his voice
"Ay man don't raise your voice at me first of all and second of all I didn't do anything."

"Then why the fuck she's thinking about to not go on tour with you anymore? Hm? Yeah I know why. Because you acted all nice and cute again and once you felt something is getting you, you got confused and scared again." Paul said
"It's not like that." I said

"Marshall I don't care the way it is. I want this tour to happen. I want y'all especially YOU to get your shit together. This tour will be fucking great not just for her but for all of you! Thinking about that not a lot of rappers comes together with a rock pop singer? Yeah exactly not a lot of them does that. And now that you got your chance to fuck it up." Paul walks out of the bus

Fuck she really doesn't want to do this anymore?

I walked out of the bus and went directly to Gabbriettes bus.
I need to talk to her and eventually if I get my balls together I could tell her everything.

"Gabbriette." I called her name
"She's gone." Robert said
"What?"
Robert looked at me and handed me a paper

𝐼𝑚 𝑔𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒．
𝐶𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑒 𝑖𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑎 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑚𝑒𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔．
𝐺𝑎𝑏．．

Well done Marshall.
Well done man.