𝐑𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝

Date night Pt2

"You didn't told me you can draw this good." I looked at the paper
"I guess I was too insecure about this."
"Why? You are fucking good at it."
"You think so?"
"Yeah.. you should paint something for me."
"Nah.. that won't happen."
"Come on marshmallow.."
"Yo stop calling me that girl." He smiled
"You love it. Look how you smile."
"You are the pure devil."

"You still love me though." I winked at him
"So.. I wanted to ask you some things?"
"Go on."
"Would you move back in with me?"
"You want me to?"
"Fuck yeah I do."
"Okay then."
"For real?"
"Yeah."
"So you don't want us to live separately after all what happened?"
"No. We are a couple. I think this is the best idea if we want this relationship to work."

"I fucking love you you know that right?"
"I love you too. What was the other question?"
"I.. I don't want to rush things but I will love if you'll come with me tonight."
"Where?"
"To my house."
"But you have a show in two days."
"Not in Detroit. Here in La I mean."
"You have a house here?"
"I bought one recently."
"Sure I'll come with you."

He's so different.
I mean he's still Marshall but tonight he was so different with me.
He gave his best to impress me.
And I'm more then just impressed, I've never thought I'll see this part of him. 
But hey we both grew up.
I can see he changed a lot, maybe hes still crazy when it comes to his job but himself as a person it's so different then when I first meet him.

And to be honest I have a feeling that this is going to be good.
I'm more then happy to let myself go crazy over this men. I feel ready to make all the sacrifices for him and this relationship.
And I can see he's ready too.

But I still need to tell him some things that nobody knew about.

"Marshall.."
"Yes?"
"I need to tell you some things."
"What's wrong?"
"I know you may get angry with me after I tell you this but I want you to listen carefully to me before you speak up. And then you can say whatever you want I really will understand if you'll get mad."
"What's wrong?"
"So uh.. you remember the last time we talked right?"
"Yeah."

"Aight so.. weeks after that you were trying to get back to me and all that but I just couldn't forgive you.
So I was really mad not just at you but also at me because I just couldn't let go of my feeling for you. When you stopped to call and all that, that's when I realized that I should just get over it and stop being angry but I still had feeling for you and I just couldn't let go of it. Suddenly I wasn't feeling great at all and I thought I was sick again. So I went to the doctor to see what's wrong with me. I did give my blood and urine to the labor and all that and week after that they told me I was pregnant.
But went I went to the doctor he told me I was pregnant in 3 weeks but I lost the baby. The baby was dead in me for almost two months and that's why I was sick."

Shit he's going to hate me so much.

"And the other thing is that Kim and girls came here in La to see me more then just one time. But we did all that because the girls were always asking about me. Kim called me then and asked me if I want to see them, of course I said yes and since then they came almost every weekend to my house. Kim wanted to tell you but I didn't want to because I thought you'll get angry on me because you first told me that I should not get close to your girls anymore."

Why the fuck is he looking at me like that?
"Marshall?"
"Aight so.. okay hold on." He said rubbing his eyes "first of all, I'm not mad that you continued to see the girls. Hailie almost said something about it but then she realized that she's wasn't supposed to say anything. So I'm not mad, but still it was nice of you to tell me because I really thought that Kim was letting that fucker she was fucking with my girls alone."

"Yeah, I know I'm sorry. I've should tell you."
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"And I only said that to stay away from them because I was mad but I never meant that. I'll never have a problem if you'll see my girls. Plus they love you just like i do." Then he took looked confused again "but why didn't you told me about the baby?" He continued "you know that you can always talk to me about anything. And I had to know about this. It was our baby.."

"I know, I'm sorry. I just didn't knew how you'll react. If you'll believe me and I also didn't want you to say that it's not your baby or for you to think that I slept wit-"
"Gabi I know you didn't slept with other man. I guess I also have to tell you something. But look from now on if you EVER feel like something is wrong with you, I want you to tell me that right away. I us to be a Beautiful Family. I don't want you to suffer like that ever again aight."
"Okay.. thank you for not getting mad."
"How I said.. I also need to tell you something."
"And what's that?"

"The reason why I'm not mad or why I don't act all crazy and shit is because i have a agent looking into you."
"Oh my god.."
"I know I'm sorry. Aight I'm sorry, but I knew if I'll come around you, you'll never allow me to get close to you. And I had to know what you doing and if your alright. Talking to Alice wasn't always good because she'll never tell me the way you really feel."  He touched my hand "i know that you never slept or dated someone else. I know that something was wrong with you. I have pictures at home with you in your bedroom crying but it never crossed my mind to think that you were pregnant and that you had to get through that all alone."  He looks in my eyes "I'm sorry for what I did. It was a bad move."

"It's okay, at least you told me now. But uh.. did you see something else?"
"Oh like your ass or tits?"
"You saw me naked?"
"No! You really think I'll let that mother fucker to take pictures of you naked? Fuck no.. but it wouldn't be a bad idea to see your beautiful body.. if you know what I mean?"
"Well you ain't gonna see that now."
"Oh come on baby.."
"Patience baby.. patience.." I kissed his lips

"I'm so sorry Baby. I was so stupid." He kissed my belly
"It's okay baby, we're now together."
"Im sorry you lost that baby. I've should know that something was wrong." He puts his head on my lap touching my belly
"Marshall I'm okay. It's my fault I've should had to feel something but I didn't. So it's not your fault."
"I want us to make a entire football team. Aight baby? As long your body can take.. I want you to be my wife the mother of my babies."
"Marshall.. did you just asked me to merry you?"
"Oh no, not like this. But soon baby. Very soon you'll see."

"You scare me."
"Come on let's go baby. It's getting cold."
"Marshall.."
"Hm?"
"I love you.."
"I love you more baby girl." He kissed me carefully