𝐑𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝

Christmas

It's been a couple of weeks now and we finished our tour. We still talk about if we going to make a other tour.
I'm now in the airport with my mother and Alice we going to Detroit.
I made Hailie a promise and I want to keep it.
So this holidays we're going to be in Detroit.

Kim insist for me and my mom to stay at Marshall's place. She said she'll just be there with the girls but then she'll go home again.
She told me she doesn't have a problem with me staying there.
But to be honest i don't want to stay there with my mom.
Alice will 100% go with Proof but I can't stay in the house with Marshall.

The fight we had last time end up well. I mostly ignored him and just did my stuff. He tried to talk to me but the only thing we talked about was whenever Paul had a new idea with the label they want to do.

And yes Marshall will still be my manager. D12 will be the first artists that will sing up with Shady Records then me and then 50 with Obie Trice.
So, how badly i want to ignore Marshall and forgot about him I can't.
I do love him and for the love of god i miss him so much.
But he needs to lern his lesson.

If he really wants to be with me then he needs to prove me that. Because how I said i won't be together with him if he fucks other bitches.

My mom is actually more excited then me to be there. Since I've came home all she wanted was to meet Marshall. And to talk with him. What's the reason? I don't know, but I hope she's not going to notice that there is something wrong between Marshall and I.
That's the last thing I need her to know or to see how Marshall and I are fighting.

Of course Alice and I bought a lot of gifts for the girls and the others.
Alice even convinced me to buy Marshall a gift.
Not that I didn't want to, but I just didn't knew what to buy for him. It's not like he's poor and he doesn't have anything to wear.
But I've seen him couple of times watching at those Jordan's 5.

Proof always told him to bought them but he said he'll buy those for the right moment.
What's the right moment only god knows. I just bought him those that I've heard he wanted and a new some gray Jordan's pants with a t-shirt with a Rolex.
I know it may be basic but I didn't knew exactly what to buy so I just bought that.

At the airport we're still waiting for Marshall's private jet.
Suddenly i hear my phone.

"Hello?"
"Hailie is asking about you." Marshall said
"We're going to be there soon Marshall. We still waiting for the jet to arrive."
"Aight I'll make a call and see what's taking so long."
"You don't have to do that. He'll be here any minute."
"Aight cutie. Call me when you guys landed."
"Stop that."
"Stop what?"
"What you just said. I'm not in the mood for your bullshit. And don't you ever think I'm coming there because of you. I made a promise to Hailie."
"You so fucking stubborn. We'll talk later CUTIE!" He said and hungs up the phone

"Why are you and Marshall fighting sweetheart?" My mom asked
Ah hell nah..
"We didn't fight mam. Everything is alright."
"You just told him your not going to there for him. What's going on sweetie? Do i need to talk to him personally?"
"NO! No mam. Everything is fine I promise. That's how Marshall and I are talking."
"But you guys are still together right?"
"Mhm.."
"I Hope so Celine. I really hope so." She said

Why the fuck does everyone wants me to be with him?
And now even my mother?
I really want to know what people sees in him and i.
Cause I can definitely tell you, that if this shit happens again him doing stuff behind my back this is not a happy "couple."

We were now in the jet.
My mom was reading Alice is listening to music and I.. can't stop thinking about a motherfucker that acts like a baby.
Fuck.. why the fuck did I let myself to fall in love with him?
I've should know that he's going to be trouble.
And now that I know.. it's to late because i love him.
I do want to tell him that I'm not mad at him anymore but I really want to see what else he haves to say.

"Big Naz.."
"You aight?"
"Nah.. i feel like i want to tell him that I want us to try again."
"Do you wanna try again?"
"I.. i don't know. I'm not mad at him anymore but I love him. I'm just afraid that this time a lot of shit will happen."
"All I can say is for you two to have a normal conversation. And then you can put the puzzle pieces together and see if it works out."
"You right.. thank you Naz.." i smiled at him
"Don't worry about it to much. That idiot loves you Gabs. He's just way to insecure sometimes."
"You really think he loves me?"

"Girl I've seen a lot of people in my life. And I know how it is to be in love. And trust me whenever he sees you around he can't get his eyes off you. I can see through his eyes how happy he is just to see you around." Naz said
"Well if we'll just like that.. that will be great."
"It will take some time. But you two are a good match together."

"Now why the fuck does everyone thinks that?"
"Because he's a crazy motherfucker and your crazier then him. Some fans calls you two Bonnie and Clyde. You two are really matching together if all this jealousy and toxic shit won't be between you two."

Damn..

"I guess you right. I'll try my best to be more humble and to be nice."
"Good.. and don't forget to smile a little girl. I can't even remember when I last seen you smile."
"I don't like my smile Naz you know that."
"Fine, if you wanna look like you want to kill people then I ain't got no problem you know I got your back. But it's Christmas.. HAPPY!" He smiled

"Agh.. you have to much energy."
"Wait until you see my wife and kids."
"Stop being so rude about everything. Smile a little." My mother said
"Ma'am you go back to your reading." I said to her
"Smile Gabi.. SMILE."
I looked at her and Naz and they both were smiling at me

I'm so done with those people.