𝐑𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝

Germany

Arriving in Germany and here is already night.
And our broken asses slept most of the time.
We got in the car and drove to the hotel. Which by the way.. it's fucking huge.

The flight was good. I slept most of the time. Marshall didn't moved at all away from me.
He kissed my cheek and forehead the entire time as he hugged me.
He was really close to me.
But I told Paul i want my own room.

I don't care how Marshall sees us right now. I just know I'm not together with him and he should not act like this just because he feels sorry about something he did.
But I'll definitely talk with him about this once we're at the hotel.

And he also needs to divorce first. I ain't going to be a fucking third wheel or shit like that.
He needs to clarify his shit that he haves together with Kim and then we'll see how this things work out.

As we were in the car Marshall was holding me in his arms.
Honestly i don't even know why the fuck I'm allowing him to get this close to me.
I moved myself away from his arms.
He looked at me confused but i didn't say anything to him.

I guess it's time for me to make myself clear because obviously he thinks something else. And I need to make myself clear especially when it comes to him.

As we arrived at the hotel Paul gave us all our own rooms.
I took my bag and Dj and went to my room.
My luck is that I don't have to go with the elevator because the room is not that far up.
So I took the stairs leaving the others in the lobby.

I entered my room, gave Dj something to drink and eat.
I got in the shower and tried to enjoy myself for a bit.
I took my phone out and called my mom.
Lately i tried to call her but she didn't respond to my calls at all.
I don't even know what's happening and the two bodyguards said everything was fine and that she haves a lot of work and that she'll call when she's awake.
But then the next day comes and she doesn't call. And that so since a fucking week.

Also my friend Alice said she's going to finish the high school this month and i asked her to come with me on tour.
She agreed with it and now I'm just waiting for her to tell me when she graduates.

I called my mother again and nothing the phone is ringing but no one picks up.
What the fuck is going on?
Did something happened?

I immediately called Alice. Hopefully she's around so she can go check on my mother.
Because i honestly don't know what's going on and I have a weird feeling about it.

"Hey.." i said
"Hey girl."
"Yo, you know something about my mom?" I asked
"Nah why?"
"Girl, I'm literally calling her since a week and she doesn't pick up the damn phone. And the bodyguards said that she's working and she'll call when she's waking up. But she doesn't call at all then."
"Shit. Aight I'll go check up on her now." She said
"Thank you. And if there is something wrong you call the police and I'll come with the next flight back home. I ain't gonna leave my momma alone." I said
"That's aight girl. I'll call you when I get there." Alice said
"Thanks."

Damn please god let everything be okay.
I have such a wird feeling and I don't like it at all.

I got out of the bath and someone knocked on my door.
I opened the door and Marshall was standing there with a long face.
"Why did you ask Paul to have your own room?" He asked
Is he for real?

"Because we are not a couple Marshall. I'm not going to sleep in the same bed with you." I said
"Oh so what are we then?" He asked
"Look Marshall, i don't know what you thought but we didn't talked about to be together or shit like that. You apologized to me we spoke again and then you were all over me again. And plus your still married."

"The fuck does that supposed to mean?"
"It means you need to get divorce first and then we can talk about whatever this is between us. Because i ain't going to be the third wheel and I'm not going to allow you to do this to Kim."

"The fuck you care so much about Kim. This is between me and you. I like you, you like me."
"I do like you Marshall. And I do care about Kim too. In case you forgot she's the mothers of your only child. Get your shit right with your wife and get YOUR own shit together and then we're going to have this talk again. Until then we don't sleep in the same room or do anything else then just talking and acting all normal like two normal people." I said

"Why the fuck did you allowed me to get that close to you? Was this your plan the entire time?"
"Plan? Marshall in case you forgot your the one that slept with a other bitch not me. So before you start throwing words again like you always do. You should better think about what you talk. Im telling you nicely and respectfully not trying to get mad on you or something that you should solve your problem at home first and then we can see what this between us is. That's all."

I said looking at the phone to see if Alice called "Now if you wanna understand this good. If not and you try to call me names again, you get out of this room and talk to me again when your being all calm and someone capable to talk to." I said to him

He left the room and didn't say nothing.
Well I'm sorry bro I'm not trying to be a bitch but that's how it is. If he likes it good if not that's not my problem. I ain't going to be together with almost divorced man.

Suddenly as i was changing my clothes I heard my phone.
"Is she aight?"
"She's in the hospital."
"Hospital? What the fuck happened?"
"A week ago she had accident at work. She fell down the stairs and hit her head very badly. She lost consciousness for 2 days"
"Holy fuck."
"I could go to the hospital."
"Nah don't need to I'll leave with this next flight." I said "thank you Alice I'll see you soon." I said and hung up the phone.

I packed my stuff really fast and left the room immediately.
I knocked at Paul's room which was I think two or three rooms away from mine.
"Everything alright?" He asked
"I need to leave back to Cali." I said
"You can't leave. Tomorrow is the show." He said
"My mom is in the hospital and I need to be there. After everything is good I'll come back." I said "But i really need to leave right now." I said
"Aight hold on. I'll make a call." He said and allowed me to come in his room

"Yeah.. Aight fine. Thanks." Paul said
"And?"
"You good to go. The car is in front of the hotel." He said
"Thank you. I'll call you as soon I get there." I said leaving his room
"Take good care." He said
"You too.." i said and ran downstairs the stairs