The Tour

36

"You are the most hypocritical piece of shit I've ever met in my life" I shouted as I stormed into his dressing room disturbing any peace he was enjoying

"Excuse you" he said standing up and walking towards me with anger written all over his face

"You make me feel physically sick Luke" I shouted as he towered over me "I'm sick of you and you stupid little games. I cannot stand these sick things you do. Nicky I love you one day and I hate you the next. Nicky take me back. Nicky go away. Nicky I can't believe you've moved on. Nicky you've been so mean. Nicky let me take you on a date you didn't even know about" I rambled as he raised an eyebrow at me

"Are you finished?"

"No" I shouted as he rolled his eyes and began to turn away as I grabbed his arm and forced him to look at me "Why is this is all one sick game to you. Why is it always me you want to hurt. This is not what you do to someone you love Luke" I shouted as the tears began rolling down my face

"I don't understand why you're in this state" he said emotionless as I threw my phone at him

"That Luke that is why I'm upset. You called the paparazzi on me to expose my happiness before you went to kiss someone else" I shouted as he passed the phone back to me still with no emotion n his face

"I'm confused are you crying over the fact I called the paparazzi or the fact I'm kissing someone else that isn't you" he said as he ran his thumb under my eye wiping a tear away

"Don't" I whispered taking a step back

"Seems a bit like jealousy to me" he smirked as I shook my head "upset that I kissed a random girl in a club? May I remind you Nicky that you ended things with me. I'm single I can do what I want" he spat as I shook my head

"So why are the rules different for me" I should as he laughed

"So much anger for someone so small, please just get out of my room before I call security" he said as I shook my head

"No luke this isn't fair, your actions have caused nothing but pain for me as your fans sent me endless hate for hurting you when it's always you hurting me" I snapped back as he stood closer to me before bending down so we were in eye-line of one another

"Maybe I wanted you to hurt Nicky...maybe you hurt me when you ran off with him... did you ever think of that?" He shouted as I flinched at every word that was spoken

"Now I'm not going to ask you again...leave" he shouted as I felt floods of tears begin to pour down my face as I turned around and exited the room swiftly making my own way back to my own room.

My room felt cold and although it was full of furniture it felt empty. Or was I cold did I feel empty? All I could do was stand there and cry it was all my body would let me do. The photo was all I could see. His arm tightly wrapped around someone else. Him kissing someone else. He was right I'm hurt. I'm hurt he was kissing someone else. Why am I hurt. I'd already moved on I was happy this shouldn't be affecting me as much as it was.

All I'd wanted all tour was for him to hurt as much as I was and to leave me alone. He kisses someone else and suddenly I'm sad and crying. However there was also the element of anger alongside the sadness. He had upset me weeks ago when the photos were taken and posted of me and Oli and for him to of done that then kiss someone else the same night boiled my blood.

"Nic?" A voice said creaking my door open as I broke from my lifeless stance stood in the middle of the room revealing Michael stood infront of me looking heartbroken as he placed his hands on my arms

"You're shaking like a leaf Nicky" he said as I nodded feeling the vibrations run though my body

"Why am I this upset" I blurted as he began guiding me to the couch

"Because you care Nicky. He can hurt you all you want but you'd still care because that's the type of person you are" he explained as he wrapped a blanket tightly around me as I continued to sob

"I hate him" I muttered as Michaels arms wrapped around my body allowing me to cry into his chest.

"I know I know" he replied holding me close allowing the room to fall silent again as my cries slowly became the only noise you could hear the only thought that came into my mind was Oli. How is me sitting here crying over my ex fair to him. How is me being this upset fair on him. How is any of this fair on him. I felt like a mess and it was all Luke's fault.