The Tour

45

"Please don't leave" I said hugging my dad tightly as they stood outside my tour bus with their suitcases in hand

"We have jobs to go to unfortunately" he said as a tear left my eye "you'll be back home before you know it" he said as I nodded before hugging my mum

"Thank you for coming" I said as she held me close to her as if she didn't want to let go

"I'm sorry" she mumbled as I looked at her confused "you'll understand at some point but I'm sorry I've I've upset you" she said as I nodded still extremely confused by her words

"I love you" she said hugging me tightly "you've got this" she said as I nodded

"I love you more" I said as she let go of the hug revealing the tears that had been streaming down my face

"Sorry to interrupt" Michael said appearing from his own bus "I've just been told to tell you that the taxi is on the way" he said as I nodded and gave them a group hug

"I'm going to go back in the bus" I said as they looked at me confused "if I go now you're still here, will make it easier" I explained as they both nodded before planning kisses on my head.

"Look after yourself okay" my mum said as I nodded and made my way back up the stairs of my bus waving to them until my door closed allowing me to break down as I sat on the stairs. Goodbyes were the hardest part of touring, always have been and always will be. But this was my career and something I'd have to get used to if I wanted it to continue into my future. I sat on the stairs motionless as I looked at the door in-front of me as if it was going to open for them to tell me it's a joke and they were staying. But as dad said, they have jobs. Lives to return to.

I took my phone out of my pocket and began to look at the photo I adored of me and Oli in the club together. I wanted to call him so badly but I knew with the time difference he'd be sound checking right now and I couldn't interpret that with my crying. Especially after what happened the last time I called crying. The last thing I wanted was him to feel guilt for not being able to come and help me.

I slowly pushed myself up of the stairs and made my way to the kitchen area and began to pour myself a glass of water to help myself calm down. I slowly looked out of the window trying to brace myself to see the taxi drive off but instead as met with the sight of Luke with his arms wrapped around my mum before shaking my dads hand as the taxi pulled up. A rage ran through me as I dropped the glass in the sink below me causing a loud thud to echo through the room with a splash of water that lightly landed onto me.

I tried to remain calm hoping he was simply being polite and saying goodbye to them and that nothing else had crossed their conversation but the shaking sensation in my hands had started I was beyond angry. But I couldn't tell who I was angry at. Luke for talking to my parents at all or my parents for their constant engagement with him. Or even a mix of both. My thoughts ended as I saw the taxi begin to drive off as Luke sent a small wave their way. I quickly made my way down the stairs opening the tour bus door revealing him stood there smugly as if he was waiting for my arrival

"I'm here now" I shouted before walking back up the stairs knowing he'd be hot on my heels

"I'm liking the assertiveness Nicky it's hot" he mumbled walking up the stairs as I rolled my eyes at him

"Get your mind out the gutter you freak I'm not going to sleep with you I have a boyfriend" I shouted as he put his hands up in surrender

"Didn't stop you from getting naked in front of me yesterday though did it" he smiled as I took a step towards him

"I hate you" I spat as he laughed at me

"Hate is a strong word gorgeous" he said placing a finger under my chin so I was looking up at him "you don't hate me Nicky" he said as I felt a shiver go down my spine

"Believe me I do" I practically shouted as he continued to smile at me making me more and more angry at his lack of arguing back

"You should be thankful for me" he said as I looked at him confused

"Thankful for what Luke? You being an asshole" I snapped as he shrugged

"No I'd say be thankful for the fact your parents were here" he said as I took a step back allowing his finger to fall from under my cheek

"That has nothing to do with you, I'm thankful for them" I said as he shook his head

"Who do you think booked their flights Nicky?" he said as my heart dropped

"Who told them the dates that would be easiest to visit?" He continued as I shook my head in disbelief

"You can shake your head all you want Nicky but this was all because of me. They came because of me" he said as the same tight feeling in my chest from last night returned

"You did it" I mumbled as he stood there looking extremely proud of himself

"Yes I did it Nicky, and they seemed a lot more grateful than you did" he snapped as I shook my head

"I was grateful till I found out it was you" I snapped as he rolled his eyes

"I'm not always the villain Nicky" he shouted back smacking his hand on the table beside us

"You are in my eyes"