The Tour

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"Welcome back" A voice clearly Michaels said as Oli and I arrived hand in hand to the venue

"How'd it go?" He asked looking at Oli with his eyebrows raised

"She said yes" Oli replied as I smile placing my head lightly on his arm as a small hug

"I'm genuinely over the moon for you both." Michael said shaking Oli's hand before opening his arms for a hug from me

"You deserve this Nicky I'm so happy for you. The sooner you leave Luke alone the better" he whispered in my ear as I simply nodded in response happy that I've had nothing but his support throughout the whole tour.

"Are congratulations in order?" A second voice echoed as I let myself out of Michael's grip revealing Luke peeing out of his dressing room door

"Forgive me for being nosey I just heard that Nicky's said yes to something" he started as he left the room and made his way towards the three of us who had chosen to to reply or rise to whatever he was trying to do this time

"Come on then show me the ring" he said practically grabbing my left hand

"Don't fucking touch her" Oli suddenly smacking Luke's own hand away from mine causing any bit of joy to leave my body at the slight thought of these two arguing once again

"Oh come on pretty boy I just wanted to see the ring" Luke said with a fake pout on his lips pretending to be hurt causing me to roll my eyes and sigh

"There's no ring Luke. Drop it" I snapped as he sarcastically placed his hand on his heart

"Oh don't sound too heartbroken about it. I'm sure someone else will put up with you if he doesn't want to" he said as I felt my own blood boil wanting to do nothing but punch the annoying look off his face

"You never take a break do you?" I snapped as he shook his head

"Oh behave you love it" he replied as I felt Oli's grip on my hand get stronger before pulling me in the direction of my dressing room

"Oli!" I said loudly realising his grip was getting tighter with each step he took

"Oli!" I now shouted a realising this was the only way to get through to him

"You're hurting me Oli" I shouted as we finally entered my dressing room enabling him to let go of my hand

"I'm sorry" he said as I stood shaking my hand trying to promote the number feeling to disappear

"Why on earth did you do that for" I snapped as he shook his head

"I can't deal with his pathetic ass" Oli practically shouted as I shook my head

"It's been two days" I mumbled slightly annoyed by Oli's annoyance

"Sorry?" He questioned as I shook my head "No go on Nicky you clearly have something to say" he snapped with a hint of anger in his tone

"I said it's been two days" I snapped back as he rolled his eyes at me "two days Oli you've had to deal with this for two days! I've had this for two years!" I shouted as he threw his hands up in surrender

"I can't talk to you right now" he said as I looked at him confused

"Sorry?" I snapped as he shook his head walking to the dressing room door

"We had such a good day Nicky. I can't let him ruin this by causing us to argue. I'm taking a moment away from you before I say something I regret" he said before leaving me stood alone in the dressing room

He was right. Our day was good, really fucking good and one small poke from Luke and arguments had started quicker than you can imagine. But at the same time I was also right. I'd had to deal with this for two years. Oli had only dealt with this for two days and I was within my right to remind him of that. He only had to deal with Luke for a small period of time but the trauma and pain I had will follow me for a lifetime. I just wanted Oli's anger to stop and stop soon.

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"I'd like to say my usual thank you to 5sos for bringing me out on the tour. I genuinely can't believe it's about to end" I said into my microphone as the crowd cheered in response

"I need you to be loud for this one Delaware can you do that for me?" I shouted as they screamed back at me

"This one is called voices" I said allowing the guitars to start playing as I stayed still at the microphone, a change from my usual bouncy self for this song. There was something about this song that felt more fitting than ever. All the noise in my head was slowly drowning me. Luke's nasty comments and awful personality alongside Oli's sudden anger and violence that only Luke seems to bring out.

Although we had quickly seen one another again before u went on stage I was still beyond worried that Oli was angry with me and that I had really ruined something for myself here. I'd spent most of my set looking over to the right side of the stage insuring he was there watching. Luckily the majority of my set had been filled with him having a massive smile in his face giving me a green light that everything was okay.

But something was different this song. That dark angry look had returned and looked worse than normal. He was practically looking straight through me to the other side of the stage. I diverted my attention to the left to be greeted by Luke who was stood with a grin from ear to ear singing along to my song enjoying every moment clearly winding up Oli.

I shook my head in Luke's direction hoping he'd get the signal that I wanted him to simply fuck off but was quickly greeted back with a thumbs up making me roll my eyes. I wanted this to end, and it wasn't going to until that last show.