Unchained Melody (Daniel Ricciardo)

You're in control

As soon as he felt Ayla tense up Daniel moves back, not even attempting to stay in the same position to try to talk to her.
He moves to her side and lays down next to her a bit unsure whether to hold her or not.

"It's ok baby, it's ok. It's just me. Can I hold you?" He asks feeling the bed practically vibrate from the violent shaking of Ayla's body.
Her breathing is labored and shallow, it's clear she barely even notices he is there.
The difference between her relaxed demeanor after she came and her panic state now, is larger than life.

Very gentle, trying not to scare her even more, he puts his hand on her face and turns it so she can look at him. It's devastating to see the pure terror in her eyes, it's like she is going through the whole ordeal all over again.

"Ayla, look at me. I'm here, he's not. You are safe, it's only me."
His comforting voice and his touch slowly push through Ayla's panic.
Her vision is a bit blurry, but she can see him and she realizes she is indeed not with David but with Daniel.

When realization sets in she bursts into tears. She was so close, but now she ruined it again.
"I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry." She repeats over and over again.
When Daniel pulls her into his arms she breaks even more.

How can he be so understanding, so patient while she says she is ready and then disappoints him by losing her mind.
She is not just mad at David for doing this to her, she is so mad at herself for giving Daniel the idea that she could do it only to leave him hanging.

"Shh don't say that. You didn't do anything wrong. I told you it's ok if it's too much too soon. Don't worry about me."
Him being so understanding only makes Ayla angrier at herself.
"I don't deserve you. I'm fucking useless. You give me so much and I can't even give you this. Maybe you should just go, forget about me, I'm not worth it."

"Hey, none of this now. You're so worth it. I love you baby, I'm not going anywhere. So don't tell me to leave unless you really want me to. I'm here to stay for the good and the bad."
He keeps stroking her hair, hoping she will soon realize and accept that he is in this for the long run. She is it for him, nobody else could make him feel like she does.
She just has to believe it.

For a while they are both silent, the room is quiet except for some sniffles coming from Ayla as she stopped crying. She is trying to process what happened and why she suddenly got so terrified. She was fine up till the moment Daniel lowered himself on top of her.

And then it clicks, it didn't have anything to do with her not wanting to take that next step with Daniel or her not being ready.
It didn't have anything to do with Daniel either. He did everything right.

"I really am ready for it. I promise I really want to make love to you."
She pushes herself back a bit, she can't face Daniel while she was in his arms and he needs to see her even though it's still fairly dark.

"It doesn't matter if you're not you know. We can take our time."
"No you don't understand. I am ready, god I am so ready. But when your weight was on me I felt restricted, it felt like I couldn't move and that was exactly how it felt when... it happened. It felt like I was no longer in control. That was what he took from me that night, the feeling that I had control over myself and my body."

She can only hope Daniel will understand, because she really wanted to do everything with him tonight. She still does.
Now her first panic reaction is gone she still wants to have sex with Daniel.
She wants to enjoy having his cock inside her, she knows she will love every second of it.
She is just not sure how to make it that she doesn't freak out again.

Daniel lets her words sink in, he gets what she is trying to explain. They talked about this before and she told him that the fact that he took that feeling of having control, was the worst of the whole situation.