My Guilty Pleasure

18. What is this obsession I have for you?

I opened my eyes, and the first thing I noticed is that someone else is in the room too. I started to panic but I remembered that I'm safe. I'm with him. I blinked a few times and shifted inconveniently which forced Damien to pull me more toward himself as he tightens his embrace. I am feeling somehow embarrassed by this situation. I blush slightly, realizing that I am lying across him with my face on his neck. His hair is slightly tickling me while his hands are completely embracing me. Our legs are intertwined and I wondered how am I going to get up without moving him. I remembered why I'm here and panic overwhelmed me because I just don't know what to do. I don't know whether to stay or to get up and go home. But I don't want to go home... I have a feeling that he will look for me. And our house would be the first place where he would go. I don't know what was he doing with Damien, or at the club, I don't even know if it was coincidence or not, but I know that if Alexander was here he will surely look for me sooner or later. And that thought scares me more than anything. I shook from fear and that made Damien shift and wake up.

-It seems that you have woken up... Ahhhhh. You could have slept a little more I wouldn't complain. In fact, I managed to fall asleep only an hour ago. I'm beaten. - He said with a gentle voice and that is weird. I looked around trying to figure out If it's a day or night since the blinds are closed.

-I'm sorry about last night... What... What happened? And how long am I here? - I asked a little nervously. I didn't want him to see me like this. And his nice behaviour makes me nervous. Damien is not nice. Does he pity me now? Is this all a trick or he does give a shit? Some sadness pierced my heart and I just shook that thought, waiting for his answer.

-Well... Where to begin... I don't really know what happened, but I'll tell you what I know. First. You entered my business meeting. Similar to the last time, may I add. Only now I do not know what happened, honestly. You began to weep, you had a face like you saw a monster or your worst nightmare. I guess you've accidentally walked there and didn't expect to see me but Desiree I am a lot of things, but I would never hurt a woman. I know in the past I even did it but I'm sorry. I would never dare to let that happen again. I'm sorry, really, for everything. I don't know why you're so scared of me...- I smile at that. I know that our history is not great and I know that nothing will change what he did and how he behaved. Part of me still despises him and he is guilty for a couple of the traumas I experienced. But... Somehow I feel calmer now that he officially and sincerely apologized for everything.

- You don't understand Damen, but it doesn't matter... Just tell me everything that happened last night.- He agreed with a disappointed face and slightly smiled.

-After that, you become delirious and started to scream and to try and get away from me, but I took you in my arms and I didn't know what to do, so I brought you here. You cried all the time and I don't know how you fall asleep and even in your sleep, I needed to calm you since you were constantly shaking and weeping. It has been a whole night and almost a whole day. Now it's six o'clock in the evening. You have no idea how much you scared me. What happened Desiree? - I honestly started to wonder why is he so nice. This is not the usual Damien. Our last encounter wasn't pleasant. We got into a huge fight at my house, he didn't talk to me afterwards. Well, only work-related stuff but not a normal conversation.

-Damien, can I first ask you something? - He nodded and I continued to talk.

-Why are you suddenly so nice? Usually, I have a feeling that you hate me, or that you're mad at me for some reason, and now you're a completely different person, I won't deny that I am very naive and maybe this is all an act, but I ask you to tell me honestly. If you want to sleep with me, you've already got that Damien. I'm not begging you to repeat that, nor am I in love with you, but all I want is not to complicate my life and to not hate me for no reason, or at least explain it to me why you hate me or whatever, so I can know how to act? - I asked him frankly and lifted so that I'm sitting on the bed. He lifted too so he can sit next to me.