My Guilty Pleasure

27. Trying New Things

Currently, I'm hesitating whether to call Charles or not. The thing is that I'm a bit scared about this relationship with Damien, or whatever it is. I think it has gotten too emotional and maybe we need to take it down a notch. I can't give him so much attention, he is just a man. I can do that with any man now, he isn't anything special. I need to give Charles a chance. Charles said he won't say anything about me and Damien but he gave me his number and insisted to call him. I'm torn whether to call or not? I sincerely want to try to be with someone else other than Damien. I think I'm ready. And perhaps, I'll finally end our agreement. That fight and all that happened at work reminded me why we could never work as a couple. Things started to get out of control. I took a deep breath and called Charles and we agreed that I'll come to his apartment at nine o'clock tonight. Ah, now it's five o'clock, I have plenty of time to get ready. This may be yet another turning point in my life. Maybe I needed this to recover and realize that I don't need Damien. He's no one special. Maybe after this, I'll end deal with Damien, meet a nice guy, fall in love with him, sleep with him, build a family... Hey, Hey slowly now. First I need to make it through this night and I'll see how and what to do with those thoughts about family and all of that. It is better to take one step at a time. I sighed and went to meet Charles. This time, I took one of the cars that I don't usually drive so that Damien won't see my car.  I don't want Damien to know that I will be seeing Charles. Don't know why but it just seems wrong to talk about going with another man. I just find it strange, even if we're not formally together. I parked in the parking lot of the building and went to the elevator toward the apartment Charles said. Just at the moment when the elevator stopped my phone rang and I saw Damien's number. Nervously I thought whether to answer or not. But it's better to answer so he won't call again.

-Hello, what do you want Damien? -

-Hello, kitty. Actually, I was thinking about you and thought that you could stop by my apartment. - He said seductively and I bit my lip, thinking about it. Maybe that would be the smartest decision. I should just get back to Damien's apartment and have sex with him, he is familiar, he is safe... But still... I gave Damien too much power over me. It's better to try something new, at least I'll know exactly how much I depend on Damien. I have to do this for myself!

-Very appealing but I can't... Zachary sent me some of the contracts that I have to study carefully and honestly I'm not up for sex right now. - I told him as convincing as I could, hoping that Damien will believe this.

-Hm... Okay. Then we can watch a movie or something. I'm really bored. - I bit my lip and decided that I have to play the bitch if I want him to leave me alone now.

-Damien, I'm not your girlfriend! I don't have to keep you company just because you are bored. Go do something else or be with some other girl I don't care but I'm not interested. Goodbye. - I said rudely, but I heard his voice and decided not to end this call.

-Okay, Okay. But honestly, what is going on? Are you angry because of those arguments in the company, because I thought we moved on? - He asked, somewhat worried, and I sighed at that. Actually, it has something to do with that argument but it's not that I don't want to be with him, I just wish to try not to depend on him, and get rid of him eventually.

-No Damien! I Just want to have some peace and quiet time right now! Go find a hobby. Goodbye. - I pointed out the last word and Damien spoke softly and then he ended the call. Oh, God. This guy is becoming more and more like my boyfriend. And I don't like it... I sighed and looked at myself in the mirror in the hallway. My hair is in soft waves and I have slight makeup on but nothing too much. I'm wearing a black lace dress that reaches to my knees and some gold sandals with heels. I do not look too formal but rather nice. I nervously knocked on the door and after a few seconds, Charles opened the door. I looked at him from head to toe and I noticed that he is good looking but somehow not as good as Damien. He has broad shoulders, biceps, and a pretty face, especially with those blue eyes and blond hair, but I don't know. Although, he doesn't have that "bad boy" look like Damien. I am a little disappointed about that, but I dismissed the thought and went inside. I'm not here so he'll become my boyfriend so it's irrelevant whether he's beautiful or not as Damien, as long as he's good in bed. Oh, God, I sounded like some slut right now. But back to the point...