My Guilty Pleasure

26. Unwanted Feelings

I don't know why but the conversation with Damien reminded me of my childhood and I dreamed about my parents again. But this time, I was dreaming of good times. At least some version of a good time... I dreamed of a moment in which my mother hugged me and then combed my hair. I dreamed of my father when he believed that I'm his daughter and when he even said that he's proud of me and that I am a good girl. I woke up at five and began to cry. I noticed that Damien turned his back to me and I just lay there for a while and wept for those moments. I can't let myself do it anymore. It's in the past. Regre, will not bring me anywhere. Today is a new day, another day of my progress and I want it to remain so. I got up, took a bath, dressed for the job, and then woke Damien up at seven o'clock.

-Hey! You've got half an hour to go home and get ready for work or you'll be late... - At first, he mumbled something dissatisfied and then took a pillow and put it over his head. I laughed at his immaturity and shook him a little harder.

-DAMIEN! Come on, get up! - I yelled once again, and he jumped on his feet frightened.

-I'm awake! I'm awake, fuck! You can be such a bitch, oh my God... Fuck... It wouldn't kill you to let me sleep... or to speak softer as a matter of fact. - He grunted dissatisfied and dress in yesterday's clothes while I am watching him. I just smiled at it and stood in front of the mirror to look at my reflection. Well, I'm not so bad. I'm wearing a tight white dress with blue stripes with a blue bow around the waist and took a blue Prada purse. As I watched myself Damien comes up behind me and hugged me from behind, his head resting on my shoulder.

-And why wouldn't we go to work together? I honestly can't go to my house and then go back to work. We'll save fuel and time. - He said with a nice smile and I almost agreed. ALMOST! He seems to have forgotten about our deal. No one can know about us and I don't want anyone to see us coming in the same car, or even from the same direction.

-Nice try, but no. Go home and get ready so you won't be late for work! - I said a little bit angry that he suggested something like that and Damien immediately turned serious.

-Why are you so obsessed with what people will think? People will always think what they want. If they somehow end up thinking that we are a couple, they will think that. You won't convince them otherwise, so we can go to work together and we will think of some excuse. Well, for example, we can say that your car broke down and I was just passing by so I pick you to come with me. So let people think what they want. - He said with a wicked grin and I rolled my eyes. He has great persuasion skills...

-No Damien... I don't want anyone to think that we're together. - I said honestly and he put a puppy face.

-Desiree comes on... I really don't want to go home. Come oooon! I will explain to everyone why we came together. And besides, I don't want anyone to know about us too. It is better for you and for me if nobody knows. So come on Desiree. We will get into the company from the back and no one will see us. - For a while, I just thought about it and I'm telling you, no one can resist Damien's charm.

-Ahh, fine come on! So be it, but only this time Damien! In the future, we have to be careful about what we do! Get ready, I want to get there in time. - I said, crossing my arms and letting him know that I don't like this and he just kissed me on the neck and went to the bathroom.

-I'll just take a shower and brush my teeth and then we will go. And by the way, I will use a spare toothbrush, I've already been using it. - He winked at me and I blushed. I didn't realize that he has been here so often. I can't believe I'm becoming so familiar with him. I feel like we are more intimate then we should be.  A few minutes later, Damien came out refreshed and winked at me, and then we went to my garage.