My Guilty Pleasure

37. Marry me?

I looked at Damien with a timid smile wanting to hear that everything will be alright. As I tried to stand up from my bad he lifted his hand in a stopping motion.

-Don't bother, this will be quick. How the hell were you so naive, so stupid, so irresponsible? - I flinched at his angry tone and shivered.

 -It's not like a wanted to make such a big mistake. The company seemed promising, you agreed to just so you know!- This made him gather his fists as he narrowed his eyes and clenched his teeth.

 -DON'T.YOU.DARE! You little devil. You know very well why I did that, I agreed only because we were fucking. I never bothered to read anything about that company, it wasn't my job it was yours... Now, look at us where we are, just because fucking was more important to you than your job!- I flinched at that, blushing wildly. I can say he is annoying me right now, hurting me... But not anything he could do would turn me away from him. I will have a baby with him, he needs to forgive me. Everything will be alright.

 -How can you say that?! You know how much I work! I know your reasons for doing the job with us, I would never do anything on purpose to ruin that! -I said now getting up from the bad with tears in my eyes and Damien took a step backwards as if I'll burn him. 

-I can't even look at you right now! You don't realize what you've cost me! You only bring suffering to those around you I see that now... Don't try to call me, write me, or contact me in any way I'm done with you...- He said it sharply and tears now started falling down my face.-Damien...-

-No Desiree... If you know what's good for you, save some decency and don't come after me.- It was like a punch... A father of my child leaving me because of a stupid mistake I made. I need to tell him.

-Damien, I'm...- 

-SAVE IT! We are done, I don't need to hear anything more from you!- WIth those words, he rushed out of the room leaving me. I fell on the floor, crying my heart out. I've been through many painful things but this takes the prize. I never felt so broken, it's like someone ripped my heart. I can't believe I fell for this man. I love him. I know I do. I wouldn't want anyone else to be the father of my child. I know we could never be an ideal family but for him, I would take anything. Any kind of family would be good, even a secret one. But I guess I don't have that choice. No! I can't let this happen. I won't give up! I need to fight for the things I want. He will forgive me, he is just angry now. I need to leave him for now... As much as it pains me I need to let him cool down and then I will do everything I can to make him forgive me. Yes! That's a good plan. I went to my bed, crying myself to sleep... It has been a month since everything happened. I still have my house but that is pretty much it. I don't think I will keep it thou. It's just a house, it doesn't matter. My belly is slightly visible now and that makes me feel joy. It's the only good thing that happened... I tried contacting Damien, but it's like he vanished from the face of the Earth. His number is unavailable, his apartment is empty, not even his name on the door. The headcovers of his company are shut down, I even tried emailing him but no one responded. So I got into a depression. I tried looking for a job but after the scandal, I can only say people were not so pleasant. As soon as they saw my face I knew their answer. So it has been a bit of a rough period. I gathered all of my money, even sold some cars, and properties so that I can help Zachary. Today we will meet and I will give him this money. I need to make that right. I will be a mother and I can't live with myself if I'm not righteous. I sighed as I slipped into one slightly baggy dress, I don't want anyone to notice my belly just yet. The only person I told is Aylen and she swore she won't tell anyone. Even Gabriel visits me regularly but I must say Aylen has been a great support. She is really there for me, always checking up on me, making sure that I eat healthily... She's a true friend, really. I arrived at Zachary's house, we agreed to meet there since reporters are not leaving me alone. It's like suddenly I'm the most interesting thing that's ever happened. Agh... I rang the bell and Zachary opened in a second, standing in front of me in some white casual t-shirt and black sweatpants. He looks nice in this home clothes and environment. I smiled and he hugged me briefly. I'm so grateful that he is nice to me. He has the right to be mad at me forever yet I can't help but feel love radiate from him. He is still working in a company, trying to bring it back, but from what I've heard he's not doing so great. Most of the people quit or were fired, the people with whom he has done business are no longer interested in his company, so it's a bit of a dry season. Zachary led me to a living room and I took a seat in a comfortable armchair.