My Guilty Pleasure

19. You bring out the monster inside of me

Damien POV

What the fuck just happened? I am absolutely confused right now. I'm sitting in my apartment thinking, more likely trying to understand what happened. I will never understand that woman. What the hell is wrong with her? I mean I want to fuck her but that behaviour is kind of a turnoff. Her bipolar behavior is driving me crazy. If she's playing with me I am not interested. First, she wants nothing to do with me, then she cheats on her boyfriend with me. Then she freaks out because she saw me, then again she wants to fuck me and then she runs away from me. She made me cancel an important business meeting. After that I was genuinely concerned for her, I was babysitting her for a whole day because she was crying and being hysterical. And let me tell you, it was exhausting. I'm not a saint to tolerate her and take care of her whole day without expecting anything in return. She wasn't into that bad guy tactic so I needed to change my approach. I was giving my best not to get into a fight with her. That woman awakens the monster inside of me. Her every word, every move provoke me to a breaking point. Why was she crying? I'm the best guy, but I don't hurt women. I wouldn't hurt her, I learned my lesson. I see her behaviour as an act. It must be. I don't have another explanation. She was doing the same thing with Zachary, she was playing the role of a damsel in distress and he was doing his best to be a knight in shining armour.  Well, I'm sorry I ruined that little roleplay of theirs. I smiled and poured a glass of whiskey for myself.  I drank it in one go and put the cup on the dresser next to the bed. Oh, I must admit one thing. She was amazing in bed. Her sweet behavior and soft moans made me even more attracted to her. She's so fiery and dynamic but sweet and shy at the same time. I don't know how she does it, but I want her more than anything else. And when I want something I get it at any cost. It seems to me that this girl is a pathological liar or a top actress. And frankly, I don't give a fuck, she can be anything she wants as long as she's under me. There are moments when I think not an act and that's when I feel bad. Somehow she awakens in me an instinct to protect her. But then she does something and I realize that it was all an act. Like today. She was crying half the night, acting like a hysteric bitch, and then she initiated sex with me but changed her mind and run off like a crazy person. I smiled a bit, remembering how people on the street were watching her. Again, I felt sorry for her, but only for a second. She is like an unresolved enigma for me. I want to solve that mystery that's Desiree. To figure out what's in her head. But no! I'm not going in that direction. All women are the same... And besides, I only want her in my bed. Nothing more. I'll do my best to get what I want. I looked at her underwear that's still lying on my floor. It made me smile and picture her in it. Oh, how bad I want her right now. Now is unfortunately not a good time to deal with her. I need to get back to business if I want to stay alive. I looked at my cellphone and noticed it's already 8 pm. Perfect! It's just the time for fishy business. I dialed a number and waited for a person on the other end to pick up. 

-Hello Alexander, it's Damien. I was wondering if we could meet again and continue negotiations. Sorry for the interruption the last time.-

-Hello. Well... alright, I'll come, but tell me the address where you want to meet. Then you can explain to me why were we interrupted.- I'm pissed at him because his tone and attitude are annoying me. His whole face just screams "punch me", but I need to tolerate him for a while. I messed up with the wrong people and now I need to become stronger so I can stay alive. I hate Alexander, he looks normal but there is something crazy and neurotic about him. It's just that look in his eyes is making me uneasy. I clenched my lips and fists, trying to stay in control.

-That shouldn't be your concern. Just trust me that it's dealt with. There will be no interruptions, I promise. - For a while, I only heard silence from the other side and I was just planning to hang up when I heard the answer.