That Kind Of Love

Goodbye Kota

--- Matthew's POV ---

I couldn't do this. Not anymore.

We'd put so much in, too much to say goodbye like this. I knew they would eventually have to go home, but this was too sudden.

I watched her face struggle to keep composure, and I watched as she took a second to study my face as some tears escaped her eyes.

I brushed the back of my hand across her cheeks, chasing them away. She looked towards the others and I continued watching her expression.

Her eyes flicked between her friends, and I felt tears well up in my own.

I would not let her see me cry. I watched her head go to the gate, and I knew she was thinking about home, and as much as I was going to miss her, I was doing the right thing letting her go.

I turned her face away from everything, and back to me. I hate the pain in her eyes.

"Its okay," I whispered.

She nodded, and put her arms around my neck, pulling me down to her. Right before we connected, we heard the call.

"We are now boarding passengers for flight 485. Please make your way to the gate, flight 485."

I groaned as I held onto Kota.

"Bye," she sniffled.

"Bye," I choked, watching her hug the guys and grab her friends.

They all walked through the gate, leaving us behind. I walked immediately to some empty seats so I would catch my breath.

I feel hand on my shoulder, as Shawn sat down beside me. I couldn't hold it any longer.

I allowed myself to cry, and watched the others try to comfort each other.

I didn't know how we were going to do it without them.