Meant to be.

Tears

⚠️TW- breakdowns
             - offensive language
            - intense emotions
            -restraints  
Addison's POV

By the time we get to the hospital, Meredith is in a surgery with Derek of all people, why him. It doesn't matter, I can't go in there and interrupt, as much as we want to see her, the person in surgery needs her focus right now, Arizona and I both make our way up the the gallery just to see her, and I feel my body relax as I see her standing there,
Arizona and I both sit in the gallery, some part of me hopes she doesn't see us, I don't want to spook her before we can talk to us,
As I watch the surgery I feel my eyes getting heavy, I haven't slept properly at all for the last week, while she's been missing, I try and fight the tiredness shaking myself awake, but eventually I can't anymore and my eyes shut,

When I open my eyes again the or below is is empty, crap we both fell asleep, Ari hasn't been sleeping well either, and I think the relief of seeing Meredith knowing she was alive was too much,

"Ari, wake up, she's gone again" I say waking her up,
"Where has she gone?" Arizona asks sitting up
"I don't know we both fell asleep," I answer come on we need to find Derek hopefully he will know where she is,

Finding Derek is harder than I expected, but eventually I manage to track him down at a nurses station,

"Derek" I call across the way, he looks up at me that same know it all smile he always has plaster across his face
"What can I do for you Dr Robbins, Addison" he says,
"Do you know where Meredith is?" Arizona asks getting straight to the point
"Why do you care?" He asks and my anger is boiling beneath my skin, I'd pushed down those memories from years ago, decided to give him another chance but I can't stand this man
"Where is she!" I demand
"She's where she belongs" he says turning back to his folder
"What do you mean by that?" I ask concerned what has he done
"That crazy bitch was a danger to anyone she treated so I had to deal with it, don't worry she's no longer your concern." He says smirking and it takes every ounce of self control not to punch him in the face, but I can see something change in Zona's face as he speaks
"Addie I know where she is," she says grabbing my hand and pulling me back down the hallway.
My heart sinks as she pulls me into the elevator and hits the button for the psychiatric ward,
As we get off the elevator I can immediately hear her screams and my heart breaks as I run down the corridor towards the sound, Arizona right at my side.
I stop when I see her, her face red as she cries, screaming for them to let her go. I can see she's restrained to her bed by both her arms and her legs, my poor baby,
"Addie! Please someone get Addie, I want Addie, I want Zona please" she cries before she see's us. I go to enter her room but I'm stopped by a doctor
"Sorry you can go in there, that patient has been put on a 72hr psychiatric hold is considered a threat to herself and others so we have had to restrict access to her room, and visiting hours are over so if you are not her husband which you too clearly aren't or family, or her doctors you aren't allowed to enter the room." The doctor explains.
"No we are family, or kinda, she um, well we are kind of her girlfriends" I answer, I can't think properly with my baby screaming my name I want nothing more than to hold her and tell her she's ok. As I look at her again her eyes meet mine and she cries again,
"Addie please I'm sorry, Zona please, I'm scared, please Addie, please" she cries
"Sorry no, as I said family, husband or doctors that's it, now if you two don't leave I will have security escort you out." The doctor says but I'm only half listening my heart breaking as my baby screams for me,
"No you don't understand, we are surgeons here and Meredith uses age regression as a coping techniques with have been looking after her, please you have to let us in, we can calm her down." Arizona explains from behind me, I can see her eyes filled with tears as she hears Meredith screaming,
"You need to leave now." The doctor demands, "I won't allow you dykes into her room this is a mentally ill patients and if you too don't leave I will have security make you leave." He continues raising his voice,
I don't know how to respond, my focus on Meredith who's sobs are just getting louder,
"Addie please, I'm sorry Addie, Zona, I'm sorry please, I won't you please." She cries her whole body shaking with the force of her tears,
"Please she's going to make herself sick, I can calm her down," I say begging him to let me in,
"No, I told you to leave." He says looking over towards the security who starts walking over to us,
"Addie come on we can't help Meredith is we are arrested or injured by the security guard, Richard will fix this come on." She says grabbing my arm, I look back at Meredith once more blowing her a kiss before I let Arizona pull me out, Meredith's cries echoing down the corridor,
"Addie Zona please I'm sorry, Addie," I can here her cry, then is changes and my heart stops "mummy mamma, please I'm sorry mamma, mummy," she cries,
I'd always wanted her to call me mummy, but I never imagined it would be like this, my baby girl is trapped and I can't help her,
I finally break down, as her cries continue, until suddenly the stop,

Arizona's POV
I'm holding Addison as she breaks down when suddenly Meredith's cries stop, I run back down the corridor ignoring the security guard, to her room where I see a nurse standing over her,
I sigh as I see they have sedated her, tears still cover her face,
We need to fix this, my baby is in there, she called me mamma, I need to get back to her.

Authors Note

Heavy chapter I know but I hope you enjoyed it,

Hopefully Meredith's ok, and Richard sorts it all out,